An early job, and walking the dogs again. Then grand plans for a great dinner and workout. Unfortunately, things just sort of started to weigh me down.
For what I think was the first time in this journey, I did some emotional eating. I was starving after walking the dogs which was a terrible mistake. I ate a huge dinner and then added things after eating that. I knew what I was doing, but when stressed, normally I have been just shutting down and doing nothing and being a slug at home, watching DVD's or whatever. This time, I ate, and it is frustrating. I wasn’t sure where that came from, until I thought about it more last night when writing to "coach Sabra". Here's what I started to realize: last week I didn't move as close to my goal as I anticipated, I have I hit a half way goal, went on the cruise, and now comes the real work of completing the second half of my journey.
The cruise introduced me to so many different people, the ones that I connected with were so incredibly fit, they were amazing and inspiring! They all made me excited to know where I was going physically, and gave me the support that I needed to visualize me in the same physical shape! However, I think that it scared me a bit knowing what I will physically be doing to get in better shape and reach my goals. It is sort of like how I felt when I started the C25K program and when I saw that I would be running 20 minutes, and increasing it until I could run a 5K. I think that I needed to work through it mentally. As I have said before, this is so mental. I think that the reason that I haven't gotten to my goal and maintained it is because I do the "work" with food and exercise, but haven't done the mental homework in examining myself and how I am feeling.
In retrospect, the thing that probably would have made all the difference would have been to have a small meal, walk the dogs, go to the gym and then a bigger dinner. So, even though today was a bit of a physical set back, I have moved forward mentally.
stats:
got about 5 hours of sleep
calories burned: 2438
caloris consumed:
calorie deficit:
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Saturday, October 30, 2010
non stop
Today was a very challenging day to get to get to the gym, which wasn't good, since I haven't been to the gym since returning from the trip. I planned my food the day before, luckily! I also prepared it all fairly quickly in the morning which was really helpful since my first job was at 7:45am. Okay, what is so scary and funny is that I looked at my calendar to see where I was first, and I see the person's name and it took me 5 minutes to figure out who she was...that shows how crazy the day was :) . Well, the woman was late getting home by 30 minutes which was just NOT a good thing because everything was timed very tight all day. The stress I felt when she wasn't there was so high because of the scheduling issue. Stress is never good, but when you are trying to lose weight, even worse. I drove from there to go and take 2 cute pups for a walk, right by my house, then back to the city I was just in for the morning job to do the next job I had scheduled. That job was great, but part way through it, the nanny agency textd that they needed a nanny for an evening job at a hotel. So, after leaving my job at 6, I went to the last job of the day from 6:30-10:30. I got home at about 11:30 and was in bed soon after that..I was totally exhausted!!
Here is was was great about the day and the lessons that I learned. Planning made sure that I had the food that I needed for the entire day and didn't have to go buy something that didn't fit into my calorie budget. However, I didn't have enough water for the day, so need to plan better for that. I don't usually buy bottles of water, I just use my refillable bottles. So, I think that I may need to buy a couple of bottles to have on hand just in case.
stats:
I got about 7 hours of sleep
calories burned:3089
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
will be entering the other info by tomorrow night and all blogging will be caught up too. I am ready to get back on track!
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Here is was was great about the day and the lessons that I learned. Planning made sure that I had the food that I needed for the entire day and didn't have to go buy something that didn't fit into my calorie budget. However, I didn't have enough water for the day, so need to plan better for that. I don't usually buy bottles of water, I just use my refillable bottles. So, I think that I may need to buy a couple of bottles to have on hand just in case.
stats:
I got about 7 hours of sleep
calories burned:3089
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
will be entering the other info by tomorrow night and all blogging will be caught up too. I am ready to get back on track!
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Really back to reality
Well, as you can see, I haven't posted for the past week. On the cruise I was able to write in my journal a bunch, and you will be able to get the details soon.
As for today, well, it was really back to reality. I woke up and really didn't have any good food to make for breakfast and to bring for my dinner at my job. I had healthy food, but all was in the cupboard or freezer, there was no produce in the house at all. So, breakfast was an easy english muffin and gf veggie sausage patty and my mona vie active blend. I had a snack of choc milk, nuts and an apple. I had a great dinner though! I stopped at whole foods on the way to my job and got some green beans with oregano, olive oil and shallots. I brought some quinoa pasta and chili to go with it. It was such a great dinner! I have never had a shallot in my life, but knew that it was like an onion. It had some great flavor, it was soo good!
I had to do 4 loads of laundry to fold, finish getting unpacked, ya know, all of that stuff. I did that in the morning, along with setting up some jobs and things like that. In the evening after work, i stopped at whole foods and got a ton of produce, and can't wait to cook this week! I had some great things on the ship, and need to find some recipes to make them. I think they were all in Jillian's cookbook, so they will be healthy..need to check it out at the library for sure!
very tried now, and have 2 jobs and a dog walk planned for tomorrow, along with a work out in the evening! I think that there is a yoga class at my apartment complex at 7pm, so I might check that out too.
as far as stats:
last night I got 7.5 hours of sleep.
calories burned:2624---very surprising to me..hmmm
calories consumed:1342
calorie deficit:1282
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
As for today, well, it was really back to reality. I woke up and really didn't have any good food to make for breakfast and to bring for my dinner at my job. I had healthy food, but all was in the cupboard or freezer, there was no produce in the house at all. So, breakfast was an easy english muffin and gf veggie sausage patty and my mona vie active blend. I had a snack of choc milk, nuts and an apple. I had a great dinner though! I stopped at whole foods on the way to my job and got some green beans with oregano, olive oil and shallots. I brought some quinoa pasta and chili to go with it. It was such a great dinner! I have never had a shallot in my life, but knew that it was like an onion. It had some great flavor, it was soo good!
I had to do 4 loads of laundry to fold, finish getting unpacked, ya know, all of that stuff. I did that in the morning, along with setting up some jobs and things like that. In the evening after work, i stopped at whole foods and got a ton of produce, and can't wait to cook this week! I had some great things on the ship, and need to find some recipes to make them. I think they were all in Jillian's cookbook, so they will be healthy..need to check it out at the library for sure!
very tried now, and have 2 jobs and a dog walk planned for tomorrow, along with a work out in the evening! I think that there is a yoga class at my apartment complex at 7pm, so I might check that out too.
as far as stats:
last night I got 7.5 hours of sleep.
calories burned:2624---very surprising to me..hmmm
calories consumed:1342
calorie deficit:1282
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Day 1 of Jillian Michaels Ultimate Wellness Cruise 2010
ahoy!
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Wednesday...and so it begins....
busy busy day getting ready for the cruise...
It is October 31st, and just posting these now. I had recorded in my handwritten journal and just transferring online now.
It is about 10pm, and I am sitting here on the plane, we are in the air @ 37,000 feet, it is time for me to sleep. I have tried with music, without music, watching the movie, not watching the movie and I just can’t sleep!! It dawned on me that maybe the problem is that I have things to write in my blog for the last few days, and I haven’t, so maybe I’ll write my thoughts down now.
I think that maybe the last day that I wrote was last Sunday, and that is stressful for me and makes me mad at myself for not doing the post every day. When I return from the trip, by the end of the week, I will have everything updated. I know that this is mainly for me, but getting out of the habit causes me to feel defeated and not as motivated.
So, here’s what I wrote for Wednesday….
I woke up on my own by 8:40am, good thing too, I set, but forgot to turn on my alarm! Since I planned my day before I went to bed last night, it made it much easier to get everything done. It all pretty much went according to the original plan so that was great! I am sooo glad that I didn’t take a job for the day!! I saw my mom, did some last minute exchanges and purchases, and then to Kinko’s to print some pictures to do my door decorations for the cruise.
I decided to try a something new to eat, a protein smoothie. ( I may actually invest in a “magic bullet” blender if I continue with them or something similar). It had vanilla rice milk powder, 1 cup chocolate milk, and 1 banana. It tasted so great, I was really surprised and it was about 25 grams of protein. I wasn’t hungry at al not even a twinge until my next meal time!
more to follow...
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
It is October 31st, and just posting these now. I had recorded in my handwritten journal and just transferring online now.
It is about 10pm, and I am sitting here on the plane, we are in the air @ 37,000 feet, it is time for me to sleep. I have tried with music, without music, watching the movie, not watching the movie and I just can’t sleep!! It dawned on me that maybe the problem is that I have things to write in my blog for the last few days, and I haven’t, so maybe I’ll write my thoughts down now.
I think that maybe the last day that I wrote was last Sunday, and that is stressful for me and makes me mad at myself for not doing the post every day. When I return from the trip, by the end of the week, I will have everything updated. I know that this is mainly for me, but getting out of the habit causes me to feel defeated and not as motivated.
So, here’s what I wrote for Wednesday….
I woke up on my own by 8:40am, good thing too, I set, but forgot to turn on my alarm! Since I planned my day before I went to bed last night, it made it much easier to get everything done. It all pretty much went according to the original plan so that was great! I am sooo glad that I didn’t take a job for the day!! I saw my mom, did some last minute exchanges and purchases, and then to Kinko’s to print some pictures to do my door decorations for the cruise.
I decided to try a something new to eat, a protein smoothie. ( I may actually invest in a “magic bullet” blender if I continue with them or something similar). It had vanilla rice milk powder, 1 cup chocolate milk, and 1 banana. It tasted so great, I was really surprised and it was about 25 grams of protein. I wasn’t hungry at al not even a twinge until my next meal time!
more to follow...
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
sunday, monday, tuesday--weigh in #17, sort of
It is 2 days after returning from the cruise, and realized it has been over a week since I posted last, and I can't wait to tell you all about the cruise. I will add more to this post and post the details for the cruise in the next couple of days, jsut trying to catch up!
Don't really have a clue about Sunday or Monday, but here's the info for Tuesday!
It is October 31st, and just posting these now. I had recorded in my handwritten journal and just transferring online now.
One day until I leave and I am feeling anxious about things I need to do. Cleaned up around the apartment, worked, ran to get food before my TEAM meeting, return my water bottle and get one that wasn’t cracked, then went to the meeting. However, didn’t go as smoothly as planned. I couldn’t return the bottle, they didn’t have what I planned to get at whole foods for dinner, it just got to be crazy and frustrating, so just went to the meeting.
At the meeting, it was great, as usual. Helps me refocus, know where I am going in my future as soon as my laser can be focused on that goal. For now, being in a positive, supportive place with like minded people is really just a great way to spend my Tuesday evenings! While I was there, I got a ton of compliments, which was very thoughtful Sulia even said, “Oh my gosh!! You look so tiny and I want your arms!!” Now, that was thoughtful, but I would hardly consider myself tiny. My arms are getting even better, and I have to say that so far, they are my favorite body part on me right now.
I headed home and then booked my hotel for the morning/day of the cruise. The last piece of the puzzle for the 21st is set up, whew!! 3.5 star hotel , with a gym, on hotwire.com for just $68+tax. They have a shuttle from the airport, and then just need to get a cab to the port. I didn’t work out at all because my left leg is feeling sore. Very frustrating, but I know that I will be active on the cruise, and good to let it rest before the workouts on the cruise. I took a bath to just relax and get out of the anxious mood, and watched last week’s biggest loser. Just before bed, I made a list of everything to do on Wednesday, so that I could accomplish everything before leaving.
I am behind on crunches and push ups, and it’s a bit frustrating, but really just need to get some great sleep so that I will be well rested for the cruise and the 5K run.
My stats:
Not sure about sleep
Calories burned:
No other info to add.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Don't really have a clue about Sunday or Monday, but here's the info for Tuesday!
It is October 31st, and just posting these now. I had recorded in my handwritten journal and just transferring online now.
One day until I leave and I am feeling anxious about things I need to do. Cleaned up around the apartment, worked, ran to get food before my TEAM meeting, return my water bottle and get one that wasn’t cracked, then went to the meeting. However, didn’t go as smoothly as planned. I couldn’t return the bottle, they didn’t have what I planned to get at whole foods for dinner, it just got to be crazy and frustrating, so just went to the meeting.
At the meeting, it was great, as usual. Helps me refocus, know where I am going in my future as soon as my laser can be focused on that goal. For now, being in a positive, supportive place with like minded people is really just a great way to spend my Tuesday evenings! While I was there, I got a ton of compliments, which was very thoughtful Sulia even said, “Oh my gosh!! You look so tiny and I want your arms!!” Now, that was thoughtful, but I would hardly consider myself tiny. My arms are getting even better, and I have to say that so far, they are my favorite body part on me right now.
I headed home and then booked my hotel for the morning/day of the cruise. The last piece of the puzzle for the 21st is set up, whew!! 3.5 star hotel , with a gym, on hotwire.com for just $68+tax. They have a shuttle from the airport, and then just need to get a cab to the port. I didn’t work out at all because my left leg is feeling sore. Very frustrating, but I know that I will be active on the cruise, and good to let it rest before the workouts on the cruise. I took a bath to just relax and get out of the anxious mood, and watched last week’s biggest loser. Just before bed, I made a list of everything to do on Wednesday, so that I could accomplish everything before leaving.
I am behind on crunches and push ups, and it’s a bit frustrating, but really just need to get some great sleep so that I will be well rested for the cruise and the 5K run.
My stats:
Not sure about sleep
Calories burned:
No other info to add.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Saturday, reassurance
I got up earlier than my alarm, unfortunately. I had planned not to set one, but my friend, Sharon, who is now doing the C25K challenge was able to meet at the gym at 10:40, so I planned on that. Got up and actually turned on the computer. I think it was the first time in a couple of days that I was really able to do the things I needed to do.
Then, I went to the gym. Not a pretty site. It was packed, and you know how much I hate that. I hadn't run since Monday, and hadn't been to the gym since monday, it was an early in the day work out, and I was behind on sleep..not a pretty picture, right? I started to run, at 2 minutes it felt like 10, then at 5, I just couldn't believe it wasn't more..kept going, but by about 18, my hip started to hurt. I think it was mainly the early work out, but probably a combination of all of the things that I mentioned above. I ran for about 25 minutes total, and had to stop. I was so mad, but I didn't want to get injured, especiall with the cruise coming up in less than a week.
Then, home, showered, picked up a pay check and went to watch a baseball game (my friend's son was playing). then, I took a nap. Got up, made dinner and got ready, then left for a leadership seminar for the TEAM...more on thaat in a minute.
my stats:
7 hours of sleep
calories burned:
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
At the seminar I was greeted by so many wonderful people who have been following my progress and some who haven't, but they said things like "wow, you look great!", "I didn't recognize you!", "you have been working so hard!" those things really made me feel good. I have been feeling like I haven't been giving enough attention to my TEAM business, and I haven't, but I had a bit of guilt about it. I know that there are only so many hours in the day and that we have to prioritize what is the most important. Like I have talked about before, this is my focus and the most important thing for my life right now. Then, from stage, George said, "wouldn't you all agree that without your health, nothing else matters?" I have heard that for years in our business, nothing new, but with this struggle I have been having with myself, it was perfect timing for me to hear it again. I know that when I hit my health goals I will be healthier, and thus a bit happier too. I will also be ready to run hard with my business and be in a physical state to do so. He talked about if you are going to go after a goal, you need to have vision, hunger and a vehicle to get you there. I have the vision(my goal weight), I have the hunger to work hard to reach that goal, and the vehicle I am using has many parts. However, I did realize tonight that my biggest inspiration in starting when I did, and the person that I refer to all the time is Jillian Michaels and I have not utilized all of her techniques in her book, so I am not using the vehicle properly. I plan to bring the book on the cruise, and will be looking at what else I need to change. she gives you a step by step approach, and though I have done many of the steps, there are more to do. So, special thanks to George Guzzardo of the TEAM for helping me to realize that about my health journey!
Jill Guzzardo was telling a story I have heard many times, but one thing she said really hit me tonight, "we are all acting like we have so many years left in our lives, but we never really know, so get it done now, so you can enjoy your life and help others". That isn't the exact quote, but very close, I am not a speedy note taker. Though she was referring to the business that I am in, it can pertain to so many aspects in our lives, especially the journey that I am on.
Another great quote tonight, "If you beieve in this, why aren't you doing it?..what excuses are you giving yourself?"--this week, obviously work was the excuse, but also a necessity. But the thing I need to get better at remembering is "I can't be willing to break a promise that I made to myself"-Chris Brady So, after I get sleep, I will do another thing that George reminded us of, "Start to do all that you can everyday".
I hope that these quotes inspired you or caused you to think differently. Maybe they will help you get out of your comfort zone and start to move in a direction towards your goals or maybe they just helped you decide that you wanted goals. Our time passes quickly and making a difference in your life and others is something you can do every day.
So, with all that in mind, as I write this blog for you and for me to learn from,I am off for now as the twins will probably be up soon, and then I will head home to bed.
Have a wonderful day!
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Then, I went to the gym. Not a pretty site. It was packed, and you know how much I hate that. I hadn't run since Monday, and hadn't been to the gym since monday, it was an early in the day work out, and I was behind on sleep..not a pretty picture, right? I started to run, at 2 minutes it felt like 10, then at 5, I just couldn't believe it wasn't more..kept going, but by about 18, my hip started to hurt. I think it was mainly the early work out, but probably a combination of all of the things that I mentioned above. I ran for about 25 minutes total, and had to stop. I was so mad, but I didn't want to get injured, especiall with the cruise coming up in less than a week.
Then, home, showered, picked up a pay check and went to watch a baseball game (my friend's son was playing). then, I took a nap. Got up, made dinner and got ready, then left for a leadership seminar for the TEAM...more on thaat in a minute.
my stats:
7 hours of sleep
calories burned:
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
At the seminar I was greeted by so many wonderful people who have been following my progress and some who haven't, but they said things like "wow, you look great!", "I didn't recognize you!", "you have been working so hard!" those things really made me feel good. I have been feeling like I haven't been giving enough attention to my TEAM business, and I haven't, but I had a bit of guilt about it. I know that there are only so many hours in the day and that we have to prioritize what is the most important. Like I have talked about before, this is my focus and the most important thing for my life right now. Then, from stage, George said, "wouldn't you all agree that without your health, nothing else matters?" I have heard that for years in our business, nothing new, but with this struggle I have been having with myself, it was perfect timing for me to hear it again. I know that when I hit my health goals I will be healthier, and thus a bit happier too. I will also be ready to run hard with my business and be in a physical state to do so. He talked about if you are going to go after a goal, you need to have vision, hunger and a vehicle to get you there. I have the vision(my goal weight), I have the hunger to work hard to reach that goal, and the vehicle I am using has many parts. However, I did realize tonight that my biggest inspiration in starting when I did, and the person that I refer to all the time is Jillian Michaels and I have not utilized all of her techniques in her book, so I am not using the vehicle properly. I plan to bring the book on the cruise, and will be looking at what else I need to change. she gives you a step by step approach, and though I have done many of the steps, there are more to do. So, special thanks to George Guzzardo of the TEAM for helping me to realize that about my health journey!
Jill Guzzardo was telling a story I have heard many times, but one thing she said really hit me tonight, "we are all acting like we have so many years left in our lives, but we never really know, so get it done now, so you can enjoy your life and help others". That isn't the exact quote, but very close, I am not a speedy note taker. Though she was referring to the business that I am in, it can pertain to so many aspects in our lives, especially the journey that I am on.
Another great quote tonight, "If you beieve in this, why aren't you doing it?..what excuses are you giving yourself?"--this week, obviously work was the excuse, but also a necessity. But the thing I need to get better at remembering is "I can't be willing to break a promise that I made to myself"-Chris Brady So, after I get sleep, I will do another thing that George reminded us of, "Start to do all that you can everyday".
I hope that these quotes inspired you or caused you to think differently. Maybe they will help you get out of your comfort zone and start to move in a direction towards your goals or maybe they just helped you decide that you wanted goals. Our time passes quickly and making a difference in your life and others is something you can do every day.
So, with all that in mind, as I write this blog for you and for me to learn from,I am off for now as the twins will probably be up soon, and then I will head home to bed.
Have a wonderful day!
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Friday...finally
This is the last day of the insanity of the week..I have work on Saturday and Sunday overnight with the twins, but that is nothing compared to what I worked this week. Here's how the "week" ended...
5:45am, leave house
6:45am-8:45am work
9:30.....meet a friend at jamba juice
10am.....job interview (decided not to take it as it would limit too many things..not a good fit
---couple of errands, rice and veggie at jack in the box..oh, iced tea too, i hated to do the caffeine, but had little choice..ARG!! oh, ate some peanuts for protien too
2pm-9:30pm....work...very, very busy day with the kids and their activities, plus had to pack their bags so I could drop them off their after practice at about 7:45pm. then back to thier house to get everything in order and return the car...
------so incredibly tired when I got home, I took a bath I think, watched an episode of biggest loser on my laptop during that(or was that another day..ugg, who knows)..then bed. I was so wiped out, I fell alseep very quickly!
Again, no gym today, even though I planned on it when I was off work at 7:30pm...too bad it went so late but some things are out of my control. I was very frustrated at the circumstances that made me stay late. They were my fault, and if I had more sleep, I don't know that I would have had the same issue. So, I also got frustrated easier because I was tired, such a bad cycle to be in!! Just so you know, even though I say that I need sleep, I am never even close to falling asleep at work or while driving. I am just trying to explain how it affects the day to day things, ya know?
Oh, I got my new arm band for my bodybugg. It is smaller!!! will put it on tomorrow, sooo exciting.
my stats:
sleep: 4 hours??
calories burned:
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
5:45am, leave house
6:45am-8:45am work
9:30.....meet a friend at jamba juice
10am.....job interview (decided not to take it as it would limit too many things..not a good fit
---couple of errands, rice and veggie at jack in the box..oh, iced tea too, i hated to do the caffeine, but had little choice..ARG!! oh, ate some peanuts for protien too
2pm-9:30pm....work...very, very busy day with the kids and their activities, plus had to pack their bags so I could drop them off their after practice at about 7:45pm. then back to thier house to get everything in order and return the car...
------so incredibly tired when I got home, I took a bath I think, watched an episode of biggest loser on my laptop during that(or was that another day..ugg, who knows)..then bed. I was so wiped out, I fell alseep very quickly!
Again, no gym today, even though I planned on it when I was off work at 7:30pm...too bad it went so late but some things are out of my control. I was very frustrated at the circumstances that made me stay late. They were my fault, and if I had more sleep, I don't know that I would have had the same issue. So, I also got frustrated easier because I was tired, such a bad cycle to be in!! Just so you know, even though I say that I need sleep, I am never even close to falling asleep at work or while driving. I am just trying to explain how it affects the day to day things, ya know?
Oh, I got my new arm band for my bodybugg. It is smaller!!! will put it on tomorrow, sooo exciting.
my stats:
sleep: 4 hours??
calories burned:
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
ththththursday....sleeep issue
The sleep thing has really caught up with me. I really don't remember this day much, except that I worked 7:15am-9:15am, went and returned items to 3 stores, purchased 2 shirts at another store, took a 15 min nap, then to work from 12-7:30. Work was really busy since the kids got out early. there were play dates, after school sports, laundry, straightening up around the house..crazy!! I am usually helping this family on Mondays and thursdays 1-6, but this week, the parents are traveling, so I am helping 4 days, and the hours are now until 7:30 or so. That also means that I am preparing dinner. Well, tonight I made a ginger stir fry for them. my mom's amazing recipe!! I forgot my gluten free tamari, so I couldn't even eat it, luckily, I brought other food for my dinner. it was nice to cook for more than just me. I cut up everything earlier in the day, so the process was easier when it came to cooking it. 2 of the 3 enjoyed the dinner, the youngest said she didn't, but trying things isn't her strong suit :)
After I left there, I dropped off the leftovers with my mom since the kids weren't going to be around to eat them the next couple of days, then I went home, and was tired, but needed to unwind. cleaned up the kitchen and did some laundry, I think. Didn't get in bed at planned time, and i had to be up early on Friday too. More sleep deprivation..this will be a problem on Friday for sure.
what I am learning from this schedule is that I DO indeed need my sleep. I feel better when I get my sleep, and I am more productive and happy when I get my sleep. I have always neeed my sleep from the time I was little, but got used to just getting by on the sleep that I could get. Yes, there will always be times when your sleep schedule gets totally out of whack, but for the most part, my schedule after I get back from the cruise will for sure be more detailed so that I get my work outs and sleep. It is like I talked about the other day, and what I have always known, but been bad at implementing it: I need to balance everything in my life better, to be healthier and happier. I do have to earn money to survive day to day, but I can make sure that I can get better sleep, even if that means cutting out a work out to do so.
My stats:
4 hours of sleep
calories burned:
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
Learning and growing into a heathier me!
~Cindy Lou
After I left there, I dropped off the leftovers with my mom since the kids weren't going to be around to eat them the next couple of days, then I went home, and was tired, but needed to unwind. cleaned up the kitchen and did some laundry, I think. Didn't get in bed at planned time, and i had to be up early on Friday too. More sleep deprivation..this will be a problem on Friday for sure.
what I am learning from this schedule is that I DO indeed need my sleep. I feel better when I get my sleep, and I am more productive and happy when I get my sleep. I have always neeed my sleep from the time I was little, but got used to just getting by on the sleep that I could get. Yes, there will always be times when your sleep schedule gets totally out of whack, but for the most part, my schedule after I get back from the cruise will for sure be more detailed so that I get my work outs and sleep. It is like I talked about the other day, and what I have always known, but been bad at implementing it: I need to balance everything in my life better, to be healthier and happier. I do have to earn money to survive day to day, but I can make sure that I can get better sleep, even if that means cutting out a work out to do so.
My stats:
4 hours of sleep
calories burned:
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
Learning and growing into a heathier me!
~Cindy Lou
wednesday-the unexpected
This work week has been killing me, but it is almost over. It is Sunday monrning at almost 6am, and I am here at work with twins unti 7:30am. Then i will be sleeping for 8 hours..hopefully!!
So, on Tuesday night, I worked overnight, home at 7:40am, but then watched my little brother at 9:30am. It was supposed to be for 2 hours. well, the unexpected happened, and I wasn't prepared with food. So mad at myself, but that is one thing lack of sleep will do to you. I can't focus as well, or go through all the details, it's like my body is in survival mode. If you think about it, it sort of is. So, after going to the park with him, we headed over to whole foods and I got some cabbage salad and some rosemary, garlic potatoes. the worst thing about not being prepared with food was that I was really hungry and ate too many potatoes. However, after I dropped him off, I took 2 dogs for a walk, so that helped to burn off those potatoes!! It was a busy day with the kids in the afternoon, and I worked until 7:30.
I don't remember going to the gym, I remember finishing up with things that I needed to return and buy for the trip. Then, I slept!!! I think that I was asleep in about 10 seconds, I was so tired! I also had to get up early the next day, so the gym was not in the schedule at all that day.
my stats:
1.3 hours of sleep...waaaaaaaaaay bad!!
calories burned:
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
I know that the sleep thing is bad, and it is very frustrating to have it happen. I also know that it will be over soon, and i will be catching up on sleep today and in the next couple of nights.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
So, on Tuesday night, I worked overnight, home at 7:40am, but then watched my little brother at 9:30am. It was supposed to be for 2 hours. well, the unexpected happened, and I wasn't prepared with food. So mad at myself, but that is one thing lack of sleep will do to you. I can't focus as well, or go through all the details, it's like my body is in survival mode. If you think about it, it sort of is. So, after going to the park with him, we headed over to whole foods and I got some cabbage salad and some rosemary, garlic potatoes. the worst thing about not being prepared with food was that I was really hungry and ate too many potatoes. However, after I dropped him off, I took 2 dogs for a walk, so that helped to burn off those potatoes!! It was a busy day with the kids in the afternoon, and I worked until 7:30.
I don't remember going to the gym, I remember finishing up with things that I needed to return and buy for the trip. Then, I slept!!! I think that I was asleep in about 10 seconds, I was so tired! I also had to get up early the next day, so the gym was not in the schedule at all that day.
my stats:
1.3 hours of sleep...waaaaaaaaaay bad!!
calories burned:
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
I know that the sleep thing is bad, and it is very frustrating to have it happen. I also know that it will be over soon, and i will be catching up on sleep today and in the next couple of nights.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
stress and balance
I seem to have plenty of stress and not much balance right now. Well, that's not entirely true. I actually am not feeling stressed like I used to. I am able to sleep when I need to, and food is not entering into the equation at all as far as stress goes. I have actually been working a ton and running around getting things for the cruise and then returning things that I don't need :) I have 2 more things to return tomorrow, then I think I am set! I will just need stuff to decorate my door and I think I have some great ideas...hopefully!! I have even let my apartment get a bit out of control because there is so much goign on. I have a huge stack of clothes to get rid of, and hope to do that before the cruise! Like so many of you, I pack all my meals, and sometimes I am away from home for all of my meals. So, the dishes stack up!! I will be able to take care of a big chunk of the apartment tomorrow, but I will be tired for sure!
So, no major activity today..but a lot of walking, and in shoes that I am actually going to throw away tomorrow!! my left ankle and shin are sore, I must have walked wrong(i have some inserts in those shoes) and so I took some aleve and used some ben gay and i hope that does the trick! i also took 2 dogs for a walk. I am working overnight again tonight, and was very active doing things around here :) as soon as I am done posting this, I will be doing some crunches and push ups!
Only about 8 days until the cruise, and I am getting really excited for it. By sunday, my entire bag will be packed, and my apartment will be all straightened up. for now, just trying to focus on the important things, and my apartment isn't one of them..surprised to hear myself say that, but it's how I am choosing to look at it, and it feels great that I am not feeling overwhelmed or stressed about it, ya know? so, I guess that I can say that there is not much balance in my life except that I am going to add "fun" into it in about 8 days! I don't take much time to have fun, so this will be great!
I will post stats tomorrow, don't have the cable to sync here.
my stats:
7.5 hours of sleep!! felt soo good!!
calories burned:
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
I plan to see if i can dig up a hula hoop..there will be a contest on the cruise!! wa little afraid of that :)
On tap Wednesday..play with my 4 year old brother at 8:30am(I leave here at 7:15am..uggg), run some errands and play at the park, take the dogs for a walk, work 2:30-7:30..hopefully get in a quick run, shower and get to sleep, very early morning on thursday!!
a quick note..I earned a movie when I hit my 40 pound mark, and still haven't gone. I earned watching biggest loser(I have only watched the 1st, and there are 3 waiting for me to see..hope I can find online)..and still haven't watched. but priorities change and I have been busy!!!
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
So, no major activity today..but a lot of walking, and in shoes that I am actually going to throw away tomorrow!! my left ankle and shin are sore, I must have walked wrong(i have some inserts in those shoes) and so I took some aleve and used some ben gay and i hope that does the trick! i also took 2 dogs for a walk. I am working overnight again tonight, and was very active doing things around here :) as soon as I am done posting this, I will be doing some crunches and push ups!
Only about 8 days until the cruise, and I am getting really excited for it. By sunday, my entire bag will be packed, and my apartment will be all straightened up. for now, just trying to focus on the important things, and my apartment isn't one of them..surprised to hear myself say that, but it's how I am choosing to look at it, and it feels great that I am not feeling overwhelmed or stressed about it, ya know? so, I guess that I can say that there is not much balance in my life except that I am going to add "fun" into it in about 8 days! I don't take much time to have fun, so this will be great!
I will post stats tomorrow, don't have the cable to sync here.
my stats:
7.5 hours of sleep!! felt soo good!!
calories burned:
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
I plan to see if i can dig up a hula hoop..there will be a contest on the cruise!! wa little afraid of that :)
On tap Wednesday..play with my 4 year old brother at 8:30am(I leave here at 7:15am..uggg), run some errands and play at the park, take the dogs for a walk, work 2:30-7:30..hopefully get in a quick run, shower and get to sleep, very early morning on thursday!!
a quick note..I earned a movie when I hit my 40 pound mark, and still haven't gone. I earned watching biggest loser(I have only watched the 1st, and there are 3 waiting for me to see..hope I can find online)..and still haven't watched. but priorities change and I have been busy!!!
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
back on track and weigh in #16
Well, pretty cool day I followed the schedule perfectly, but at work in the afternoon, I decided that it would be best to go to target tonight in addition to the already scheduled whole foods, followed by the gym. I kept thinking about it decided that I was going to go to Target tonight. I knew that the list of things to get was just weighing on my mind, so thought I would have better sleep and everything if I just got it done. So, I went to whole foods and then had 1.5 hours at Target. First stop...clothes. I had much better luck at this Target than the other one!! I got a ton of stuff, and feel really good about it. I had a very long list of other things to get, and tomorrow I will return some of the things that I got and pick up the few things that I missed. I really wanted to finish, but only a couple of things that I ran out of time to get. My focus was clothes. When I was there, I started to look at the clothes and when I was so critical before, I started to say to myself things like, "well, you haven't hit your goal, they aren't going to fit perfectly. How do they fit with the body you currently have?" I had a lot more postive experience this time, and found some great things.
when I got home, I put the groceries away, changed my clothes, and went to the gym to run. I ran at 4.6 for the first 15 minutes, and 4.5 for the last. that is 5 min more at 4.6 than I did last time. So, it didn't give me much more distance, surprisingly, in 30 minutes, 2.29miles total. I worked until 6:30 this morning, came home and did a few things that I had to get done, then took a 2.5 hour nap. Walked a dog, went to work, and you know what happened after work. So, a very active day, and my stats reflect that too. Oh, after my shower when I was going through things that I purchased, and then went through more clothes in my drawers and closet and found a bunch of new clothes to try on. some totally fit!! and I got to take some more "too big" clothes in the heap on the floor :) So, I will probably be able to return some of the clothes that I purchased. very cool that some of my stuff fit that had been tucked into my drawer!!
stats:
sleep..not much
calories burned:3525
calories consumed: 1381
calorie deficit: 2144
so, tomorrow night, I will watch the second episode of the biggest loser, since I hit 19oo calorie deficit.
Weigh in today move me 2.4 closer to my goal this past week for a total of 47.4. I just haven't hit the deficits that I set as goals, but this week will be higher burn, and more sleep for sure!! With that in mind, I'm going to go for now and sleep.
Plan for tomorrow...go see my mom show clothes for trip and narrow it down, go to target, get remaining items and return items, take 2 dogs for a walk, run at the gym, work, and then go to my TEAM meeting..and just today, the twins' parents called me..they need help on tuesday night.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
when I got home, I put the groceries away, changed my clothes, and went to the gym to run. I ran at 4.6 for the first 15 minutes, and 4.5 for the last. that is 5 min more at 4.6 than I did last time. So, it didn't give me much more distance, surprisingly, in 30 minutes, 2.29miles total. I worked until 6:30 this morning, came home and did a few things that I had to get done, then took a 2.5 hour nap. Walked a dog, went to work, and you know what happened after work. So, a very active day, and my stats reflect that too. Oh, after my shower when I was going through things that I purchased, and then went through more clothes in my drawers and closet and found a bunch of new clothes to try on. some totally fit!! and I got to take some more "too big" clothes in the heap on the floor :) So, I will probably be able to return some of the clothes that I purchased. very cool that some of my stuff fit that had been tucked into my drawer!!
stats:
sleep..not much
calories burned:3525
calories consumed: 1381
calorie deficit: 2144
so, tomorrow night, I will watch the second episode of the biggest loser, since I hit 19oo calorie deficit.
Weigh in today move me 2.4 closer to my goal this past week for a total of 47.4. I just haven't hit the deficits that I set as goals, but this week will be higher burn, and more sleep for sure!! With that in mind, I'm going to go for now and sleep.
Plan for tomorrow...go see my mom show clothes for trip and narrow it down, go to target, get remaining items and return items, take 2 dogs for a walk, run at the gym, work, and then go to my TEAM meeting..and just today, the twins' parents called me..they need help on tuesday night.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Monday, October 11, 2010
sunday and door decorating ideas, please
I am looking forward to my scheduled week!! This weekend was non-stop!!! 11 hours of work on Saturday, overnight pet sitting and then 14 hours of work today. As you can imagine, I am a bit tired. I am with the twins tonight, overnight, and I am using the aid of caffeine tonight to help me stay awake. I can’t find my cord for my bodybugg, and will need to really look for it at home. I don’t have internet access here for some reason, so I am writing the blog and will post on Monday, and all the meals I planned on entering, I can’t until tomorrow again. I am thinking that I will just do my weigh in, call the food entries a loss, and start fresh tomorrow. It seems silly to try and enter it all so far after the fact, just to say that I did it. I told you that I schedule the entire week, I forgot to mention, I even scheduled time for blogging at night, so that I would make sure that I don’t run out of time each night.
Today I ran into some challenges. On Saturday, I packed my food for the entire weekend. Unfortunately, I forgot my last meal of Sunday!! It ended up working out okay, because I took the little girl that I was watching, to Jamba juice, and then got some nuts to go with it too. The crazy part is that when I got home tonight, I was starving!! So, I think that I ended up with 6 small meals today. I am curious about the calories, but if my calculations are correct, I did about 1700, and with the long day, I feel okay about that. Lots of walking today, but no working out at all again. One more reason that I am so happy to have really mapped out the week! I think that I have mentally scheduled my week, just having an idea of when I would work out and everything, but seeing EVERYTHING written in, is making it much easier for me to see how the week is going to flow. With this, I also am not worrying about when I am going to shop for clothes or misc items for the trip.. It is in there too!!
For the cruise we have a door decorating contest, I think that I mentioned that. Well, I haven’t scheduled time to do that, but have been thinking of and writing down ideas. I plan to pull it all together next week on Monday eve and during the day on Wednesday, since I am not scheduling anything that day, and I don’t need to leave until 6pm for the airport. Do you have any suggestions of what to put on there to talk about my journey?
I don’t have much else to mention today, but this week, I even have listed what I will do at the gym each time I work out, and it is going to be a great, calorie burning week, so I will have plenty to blog about then!!
I am off to meal plan for the week and make my final shopping lists for Target and whole foods for the cruise and this week’s meals. It is all starting to click together much better than it has been, I’m so excited!!
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Today I ran into some challenges. On Saturday, I packed my food for the entire weekend. Unfortunately, I forgot my last meal of Sunday!! It ended up working out okay, because I took the little girl that I was watching, to Jamba juice, and then got some nuts to go with it too. The crazy part is that when I got home tonight, I was starving!! So, I think that I ended up with 6 small meals today. I am curious about the calories, but if my calculations are correct, I did about 1700, and with the long day, I feel okay about that. Lots of walking today, but no working out at all again. One more reason that I am so happy to have really mapped out the week! I think that I have mentally scheduled my week, just having an idea of when I would work out and everything, but seeing EVERYTHING written in, is making it much easier for me to see how the week is going to flow. With this, I also am not worrying about when I am going to shop for clothes or misc items for the trip.. It is in there too!!
For the cruise we have a door decorating contest, I think that I mentioned that. Well, I haven’t scheduled time to do that, but have been thinking of and writing down ideas. I plan to pull it all together next week on Monday eve and during the day on Wednesday, since I am not scheduling anything that day, and I don’t need to leave until 6pm for the airport. Do you have any suggestions of what to put on there to talk about my journey?
I don’t have much else to mention today, but this week, I even have listed what I will do at the gym each time I work out, and it is going to be a great, calorie burning week, so I will have plenty to blog about then!!
I am off to meal plan for the week and make my final shopping lists for Target and whole foods for the cruise and this week’s meals. It is all starting to click together much better than it has been, I’m so excited!!
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Saturday, October 9, 2010
tuesday through Friday
It is Saturday, and I am blogging for the week. Planning for the cruise, work this week,trying to figure out work for next week, and all finances for the month has sort of taken control of my life. I am feeling tired today, and I won't get a ton of sleep, which has been challenging. I am sort of trying to figure out how to make all of this work. I need to take the jobs that I am offered, especially this month because I will have 6 days with no work while I am on the cruise. But, my sleep and work out schedule has not been what I want it to be and what it needs to be to hit my goals. I worked overnight on Tuesday night after my meeting, but as able to catch some sleep on Wednesday, and that night, I ran. I have run just 2 times this week, and those are the only work outs that I have done. I have done my crunches and push ups, except tonight..oh, and last night. My run the other night was great! I ran for 30 minutes, for a total of 2.27miles. the last 10 minutes, I increased my speed to 4.6. I also did weights that night too. My legs were sore, surprisingly, but I'm glad sort of because I could tell that I worked my muscles well.
Also this week, on Friday, I attended a funeral for my friend's husband. I knew him, and he was one of the most genuine people ever! I never really spent all that much time with him, but in the times that I have, in person and on the phone, he made me feel as if I were the only person in the room. He was only 57, I think. It was a terrible thing, and it was sudden. In these situations in the past, I would dive right in and see what I could do. This situation, the same was true..however, in the past, a week or two later, I would start to mentally process all of it, it would affect my sleeping and eating schedule. What is so cool is that I did that already. I worked through it, and have put my focus on me and my health, and talking to the people in my life that I care about..and I feel healthier after this. I hope that with me being in a better place mentally that I will be able to help my friend through this as much as she needs.
I am looking at the schedule for the next 10 days leading up to the cruise. I am working just one overnight, possibly 2 or 3 if I am asked, plus 3 mid day dog walks, a leadership seminar and 40 hours of work at various homes. The great news is that the bulk of the hours are early in the week, and I have everynight after 8pm free, along with only 7 hours on Friday, and none on Saturday and Sunday as of now. So, I will go to the gym on Monday, Wednesday and Friday at about 9pm, and thursday night closer to 10pm. Tuesday will be about 10:30, and Sunday I plan to get 2 in.
I am also able to sleep in every day except Friday!! I also have a high school friend coming in from out of town on Sunday, so making time for that will be important to me too.
Saturday morning and Sunday are free, so I plan to do all last minute shopping for the cruise that I didn't accomplish during the free day time hours during the week.
I have been good about logging my food on paper, but not good about putting in online in my bodybugg program. However, tomorrow I will get that all entered. I will only give you guys my average for the week next tiem that I blog. I don't think that I hit a 1900 calorie deficit any day this week, so I am still 2 weeks behind on biggest loser. I would love to see them all before my cruise, but making time for TV, even the Biggest Loser isn't my top priority this week expecially. I plan to work to hit 1900 deficit every day this week. The day I see it being the biggest problem is on Saturday, but that will probably be my day of rest.
You may be thinking..wow, I don't need to hear her entire schedule, and, you are probably right. However, I guess that I am sharing it with you to help myself work through and prioritize and schedule the time so that I can see in writing how I CAN make it work, if I manage my time well and just focus on my goal.
I don't know if I will hit my goal of 60 pounds before the cruise, but I will by the time I return for sure. I had planned on hitting it much sooner in my journey, but what is really sinking in is that with my work schedule never being the same, I have to make adjustments and make a decision every day to work out, pack my food, get my sleep. I haven't been great at all of those every week, that's for sure, but I am good at staying persistent. I am hoping that the skills and information that I learn on the cruise from experts, the workouts that I get and the people that I meet that are on a similar journey will help me get the rest of the way in a faster, more efficient manner.
I just thought of a couple bonus work out opportunities this week...3 days of walking 2 dogs for 30-60 minutes each time AND on my overnights with the twins, I can do the eliptical machine while the babies sleep..whoo hoo!!!
okay, my eyes are getting really tired.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Also this week, on Friday, I attended a funeral for my friend's husband. I knew him, and he was one of the most genuine people ever! I never really spent all that much time with him, but in the times that I have, in person and on the phone, he made me feel as if I were the only person in the room. He was only 57, I think. It was a terrible thing, and it was sudden. In these situations in the past, I would dive right in and see what I could do. This situation, the same was true..however, in the past, a week or two later, I would start to mentally process all of it, it would affect my sleeping and eating schedule. What is so cool is that I did that already. I worked through it, and have put my focus on me and my health, and talking to the people in my life that I care about..and I feel healthier after this. I hope that with me being in a better place mentally that I will be able to help my friend through this as much as she needs.
I am looking at the schedule for the next 10 days leading up to the cruise. I am working just one overnight, possibly 2 or 3 if I am asked, plus 3 mid day dog walks, a leadership seminar and 40 hours of work at various homes. The great news is that the bulk of the hours are early in the week, and I have everynight after 8pm free, along with only 7 hours on Friday, and none on Saturday and Sunday as of now. So, I will go to the gym on Monday, Wednesday and Friday at about 9pm, and thursday night closer to 10pm. Tuesday will be about 10:30, and Sunday I plan to get 2 in.
I am also able to sleep in every day except Friday!! I also have a high school friend coming in from out of town on Sunday, so making time for that will be important to me too.
Saturday morning and Sunday are free, so I plan to do all last minute shopping for the cruise that I didn't accomplish during the free day time hours during the week.
I have been good about logging my food on paper, but not good about putting in online in my bodybugg program. However, tomorrow I will get that all entered. I will only give you guys my average for the week next tiem that I blog. I don't think that I hit a 1900 calorie deficit any day this week, so I am still 2 weeks behind on biggest loser. I would love to see them all before my cruise, but making time for TV, even the Biggest Loser isn't my top priority this week expecially. I plan to work to hit 1900 deficit every day this week. The day I see it being the biggest problem is on Saturday, but that will probably be my day of rest.
You may be thinking..wow, I don't need to hear her entire schedule, and, you are probably right. However, I guess that I am sharing it with you to help myself work through and prioritize and schedule the time so that I can see in writing how I CAN make it work, if I manage my time well and just focus on my goal.
I don't know if I will hit my goal of 60 pounds before the cruise, but I will by the time I return for sure. I had planned on hitting it much sooner in my journey, but what is really sinking in is that with my work schedule never being the same, I have to make adjustments and make a decision every day to work out, pack my food, get my sleep. I haven't been great at all of those every week, that's for sure, but I am good at staying persistent. I am hoping that the skills and information that I learn on the cruise from experts, the workouts that I get and the people that I meet that are on a similar journey will help me get the rest of the way in a faster, more efficient manner.
I just thought of a couple bonus work out opportunities this week...3 days of walking 2 dogs for 30-60 minutes each time AND on my overnights with the twins, I can do the eliptical machine while the babies sleep..whoo hoo!!!
okay, my eyes are getting really tired.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
messed up Monday and weigh in #15
Wow, I am so tired. It is 2:43am on Tuesday. Monday’s plan for a quick run and for 5/6 hours of sleep pretty much got thrown out the window. I left work at 7am, checked in again on some cats, went home and weighed in. .i have moved 3.2 closer to my goal for a total of 45.2! I didn’t hit my 50 pound goal for tomorrow, but after the week that I had, I am soo happy that I accomplished what I did! My goal for next Monday is 4.8 pounds for a total of 50. With some great strategy, and me staying focused on my goal, I know that I can do it! During the time when I left work and 9:30am, I had a few friends that just needed help. I want to be able to help when I can, and for one of my friends, I felt terrible that I couldn’t help more. My friend’s husband passed away over the weekend. He wasn’t all that old, and it was so sudden. I wanted to just know the right thing to say and help, but there really are no words. So, that was one of the friends that I wanted to be able to help, and a couple of other phone calls with friends that were having challenges, so I ended up sleeping just about 30 minutes in the morning. Then I stopped by by friends house to check on her and luckily she had family around helping her. I worked 1-6 , then had to go to 2 stores, then I slept for about 2 hours before I went and got some caffeine and got here to work.
It was a very active day at work, and though I chose sleep over working out, so that I could actually function tonight, I know that the rest of the week, I can work out every day. I just did all of my push ups and crunches for the day, so, I feel great about that too! Obviously, I didn’t print out blog from yesterday, due to time and lack of sleep, and not posting pics tonight because no internet access. I am actually typing this in an email on outlook to myself so that I can copy and paste it to the blog in the morning.
The passing of my friend’s husband, he was my friend too, but really didn’t know him THAT well, made me reflect today. Helped me to look at what is important to me, and why I am setting out to accomplish this big goal. It’s for my health. Without that, nothing else matters because If my health is terrible, I might not be able to be around for the other things in my life. We all know this, but I think we think about it more when something happens to someone who has affected our life in some way. Does that make sense? It also made me think about spending more time with people in my life. I always want to do that anyway, but it’s not always as pressing in my mind.
Here are my stats:
Sleep..2.5 hours
Calories burned:
Calories consumed:
Calorie deficit:
(will be posted when I get internet access)
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
It was a very active day at work, and though I chose sleep over working out, so that I could actually function tonight, I know that the rest of the week, I can work out every day. I just did all of my push ups and crunches for the day, so, I feel great about that too! Obviously, I didn’t print out blog from yesterday, due to time and lack of sleep, and not posting pics tonight because no internet access. I am actually typing this in an email on outlook to myself so that I can copy and paste it to the blog in the morning.
The passing of my friend’s husband, he was my friend too, but really didn’t know him THAT well, made me reflect today. Helped me to look at what is important to me, and why I am setting out to accomplish this big goal. It’s for my health. Without that, nothing else matters because If my health is terrible, I might not be able to be around for the other things in my life. We all know this, but I think we think about it more when something happens to someone who has affected our life in some way. Does that make sense? It also made me think about spending more time with people in my life. I always want to do that anyway, but it’s not always as pressing in my mind.
Here are my stats:
Sleep..2.5 hours
Calories burned:
Calories consumed:
Calorie deficit:
(will be posted when I get internet access)
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Monday, October 4, 2010
sleepy sunday
It is now 3:30am on Monday, and I have moved forward more tonight than I did, physically, all day. I haven't mentioned push ups and crunches much because I haven't been doing them each day. I think that Sunday night I realized that with all that I had going on, I bit off more than I could chew in my expectations of what i could do physically. Don't get me wrong, there was the time available for me to get them done, but physically I was so drained, it was to much. If I try and take on too much, and I don't accomplish it, I don't want to feel totally defeated and slide backwards. So, this week, i did all of my wall push ups, 4 of the 7 days of bent knee push ups and only 2.5 days of the crunches. Oh, I just remembered that on Friday, I used that machine where you support your weight on your elbows, put your back against the pad, and then lift your knees--it helps your abs. I did my personal best of 9. So, I am going to repeat this week's "goal" of how many crunches, and push ups. It is silly to move on when I haven't mastered a level. When I finish with this post, I plan to enter all of my food for the days that i missed this past week, and then make up some daily schedules that are realistic, with sleep, workout and eating times. I will post one day at a time up where I can see it each morning. I will focus on one day at a time, not look ahead to the entire week. I will also make sure that I post to the blog every day. I planned on bringing my portable hard drive tonight to this job so that I could post some pictures, but forgot it. Tomorrow, I will get more pictures of me, for this weigh in that I have in the morning, if for some reason I can't, I will post as many pictures as I can so you can see, finally. I have not been putting my goals right in front of me, to make them my key focus every day. That will change this week.
Today I didn't work out, but I did do some research/dream building online regarding the cruise. I have decided that I will do one excursion each of the 2 days that I can. They run $39 to $59 per excursion. I am trying to decide which ones to do. If any of you have suggestions, let me know. The one I am considering the most is in Nassau, Bahamas and it is a sailboat ride and snorkeling. I didn't really think much about clothes for the cruise, I don't really want to spend a ton of money on clothing that I won't have very long, and I won't really wear much. However, I know that i need to get a couple of pairs of shorts and a few more work out items since the ones that I have are starting to fall apart. I have a swim suit, though it's not great, it will work.
I took a 3 hour nap today, to get a jump on this overnight job that will mess with my sleeping habits again for a couple of days. I also sent that email that I needed to send, and by doing that, I got a new found energy and accomplished many things at home that I needed to do. I keep thinking about how much I would have done if I had written it sooner. I am still not done with all that I need to take care of in my apartment, I have things scattered all over, and as you know from previous posts, that is really hard for me. Some of it is stuff to sell on craigs list, I still have that stack of clothes that are too big to get rid of and some stuff I need to put in my patio storage. These are things to accomplish this week along with 3 runs, some biking, swimming and weights. It is a new week, and I have some goals to hit before the cruise.
Oh, I never hit a 1900 calorie deficit this week, so I didn't watch the biggest loser. I really wanted to watch it, but if I don't hit the goal, I don't get to. So, this week, when I hit 1900, I will watch last week's, and when I hit it again, I will watch this week's.
I will print out this post so that I stay on track with these goals. I know there will be some challenges that I don't anticipate,I know there will be a funeral to attend this week, but not sure which day, I know that I will have added jobs that I will have to rearrange my schedule for. I also know that if i make excuses for not doing the things that I have talked about here, then I am quitting on the commitments that I have made not only to you, but to myself. I can't look the people I love in the eye and tell them that they aren't worth a little pain on my part, and I can't do it to myself anymore. We are all worth more than that.
my stats:
calories burned:2051---yikes..can you tell it was a sedentary day?!?!!
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
learning and growing into a healthier me!!
~Cindy Lou
Today I didn't work out, but I did do some research/dream building online regarding the cruise. I have decided that I will do one excursion each of the 2 days that I can. They run $39 to $59 per excursion. I am trying to decide which ones to do. If any of you have suggestions, let me know. The one I am considering the most is in Nassau, Bahamas and it is a sailboat ride and snorkeling. I didn't really think much about clothes for the cruise, I don't really want to spend a ton of money on clothing that I won't have very long, and I won't really wear much. However, I know that i need to get a couple of pairs of shorts and a few more work out items since the ones that I have are starting to fall apart. I have a swim suit, though it's not great, it will work.
I took a 3 hour nap today, to get a jump on this overnight job that will mess with my sleeping habits again for a couple of days. I also sent that email that I needed to send, and by doing that, I got a new found energy and accomplished many things at home that I needed to do. I keep thinking about how much I would have done if I had written it sooner. I am still not done with all that I need to take care of in my apartment, I have things scattered all over, and as you know from previous posts, that is really hard for me. Some of it is stuff to sell on craigs list, I still have that stack of clothes that are too big to get rid of and some stuff I need to put in my patio storage. These are things to accomplish this week along with 3 runs, some biking, swimming and weights. It is a new week, and I have some goals to hit before the cruise.
Oh, I never hit a 1900 calorie deficit this week, so I didn't watch the biggest loser. I really wanted to watch it, but if I don't hit the goal, I don't get to. So, this week, when I hit 1900, I will watch last week's, and when I hit it again, I will watch this week's.
I will print out this post so that I stay on track with these goals. I know there will be some challenges that I don't anticipate,I know there will be a funeral to attend this week, but not sure which day, I know that I will have added jobs that I will have to rearrange my schedule for. I also know that if i make excuses for not doing the things that I have talked about here, then I am quitting on the commitments that I have made not only to you, but to myself. I can't look the people I love in the eye and tell them that they aren't worth a little pain on my part, and I can't do it to myself anymore. We are all worth more than that.
my stats:
calories burned:2051---yikes..can you tell it was a sedentary day?!?!!
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
learning and growing into a healthier me!!
~Cindy Lou
Still bogged down, but more rested
I feel much more rested and plan to take on running again tonight. I had no work until about 4pm, had to leave by 3pm...but since I got up around 10am, I didn't think I had a ton of time to do things. In retrospect, I did, but I got up, slow to wake up, breakfast, lunch, dishes, laundry( I really need to get more work out clothes), and answering emails. In writing this, it sounds like excuses. I planned to work out after the job ended at 9pm, so wasn't really too worried about working out. I was thinking, cool, I can prepare my meals, get a few things done to be ready for Sunday and the rest of the week. BUt, I think I ended up turning on the computer and got sucked in to doing things that I didn't need to focus on. I think, I was still trying to avoid writing that email to the job on Friday, and was distracting myself with everything that I could.
I went to work that night, and it was great. I got to see the girls that I was a nanny for, for 4.5 years, and we had a great time. We talked about me doing the "race" AKA 5K, we talked about me working out, eating healthy. But I also had to be careful not to talk about weight too much and things like that, because as young girls, I want the focus for them to be on a healthy lifestyle...not on a number that is your weight. I planned to be done at about 9, but ended up being done after 10. It was totally fine, but it through off my plans a bit.
Once home, I got dressed and headed to the gym. It was hard again, but I pushed through for awhile, and was determined to complete it. Then, out of nowhere, i got a cramp on my right side. I never get cramps anymore..uggg. I thought, fight through it, it will pass. But, it didn't pass, it kept hurting more, a couple of minutes went by, I ketp telling myself, if this happens in the 5K, you're not going to stop, but, it got hard to run, I had to stop. However, I went down to a walk, and it started to get a bit better. I increased my walking speed to 3.7 and increased my incline to 1.0, and finished the 30 minutes that way. I then went home, took my shower and went to bed. I knew that I had things I wanted to accomplish on Sunday, and I knew that I needed to be at work at 11pm for overnight with the twins, so sleep would be important.
my stats:
calories burned: 2813
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
I am starting to figure things out. I'm not perfect at this, and I know that I will never be, but what I do know is that even when I have a day that didn't meet my expectations, or I didn't put all that I felt was important to put into it, I am still learning from it and trying to figure out why, so that in the future, hopefully I will be able to reflect on it and make a different decision.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
I went to work that night, and it was great. I got to see the girls that I was a nanny for, for 4.5 years, and we had a great time. We talked about me doing the "race" AKA 5K, we talked about me working out, eating healthy. But I also had to be careful not to talk about weight too much and things like that, because as young girls, I want the focus for them to be on a healthy lifestyle...not on a number that is your weight. I planned to be done at about 9, but ended up being done after 10. It was totally fine, but it through off my plans a bit.
Once home, I got dressed and headed to the gym. It was hard again, but I pushed through for awhile, and was determined to complete it. Then, out of nowhere, i got a cramp on my right side. I never get cramps anymore..uggg. I thought, fight through it, it will pass. But, it didn't pass, it kept hurting more, a couple of minutes went by, I ketp telling myself, if this happens in the 5K, you're not going to stop, but, it got hard to run, I had to stop. However, I went down to a walk, and it started to get a bit better. I increased my walking speed to 3.7 and increased my incline to 1.0, and finished the 30 minutes that way. I then went home, took my shower and went to bed. I knew that I had things I wanted to accomplish on Sunday, and I knew that I needed to be at work at 11pm for overnight with the twins, so sleep would be important.
my stats:
calories burned: 2813
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
I am starting to figure things out. I'm not perfect at this, and I know that I will never be, but what I do know is that even when I have a day that didn't meet my expectations, or I didn't put all that I felt was important to put into it, I am still learning from it and trying to figure out why, so that in the future, hopefully I will be able to reflect on it and make a different decision.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
friday--bogged down
Well, like I have talked about before, this is a learning and growing experience, and all of us have to figure out how to handle things that come our way. I know that if I am really busy, I do better fitting things in and scheduling work out time and getting the house in order. When I have nothing planned at all, I do very little. Maybe read, watch a dvd or something, sleep, look at stuff online..overall procrastinate. Are any of you like that? I think that in the past, I would be bored and eat something. Glad to say that doesn't really enter my mind these days. I know taht every 4 hours, I eat..that's it, and for me, knowing that, makes it easier.
It is Monday morning, 10/4, at 2am. I am watching the twins again, and catching up on all I can from last week. That is why I am talking about getting bogged down and learning how to handle things.
So, on Friday, I had a difficult time at a job, and knew that I needed to talk to the parents about it, but didn't want to ruin the trip the mom was on by sending and email to her while she was away. So, I planned on sending it on Sunday. That bogged me down all weekend. What is so funny is that seriously, as I was typing this, I came up with a solution that would have worked. I could have typed out the email and saved it to send on Sunday. Maybe if I would have blogged on Friday, I could have avoided the weekend bog down.
The cool thing about this day is that I was with a 5 year old at a park, and I did some push ups on the equipment, did some other things that I surprised myself with. It was pretty cool. I also walked around while she played, played with her, just kept moving, it was great. I attempted a pull up on a bar, as you could probably guess, yeah, I wasn't able to do it. But, I tried. :)
I was determined to do a run, since I hadn't run since tuesday. Well, I fell short. I did about 2 minutes, and well, I had to stop. I think that the lack of sleep finallly caught up with me and my body. I went over and did the bike for a few minutes, then I did weights. I then went home and after my shower, went straight to bed. I fell right asleep.
my stats:
calories burned: 3127
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
will fill in the rest when I enter my food. Just wanted to make sure I got blogging done.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
It is Monday morning, 10/4, at 2am. I am watching the twins again, and catching up on all I can from last week. That is why I am talking about getting bogged down and learning how to handle things.
So, on Friday, I had a difficult time at a job, and knew that I needed to talk to the parents about it, but didn't want to ruin the trip the mom was on by sending and email to her while she was away. So, I planned on sending it on Sunday. That bogged me down all weekend. What is so funny is that seriously, as I was typing this, I came up with a solution that would have worked. I could have typed out the email and saved it to send on Sunday. Maybe if I would have blogged on Friday, I could have avoided the weekend bog down.
The cool thing about this day is that I was with a 5 year old at a park, and I did some push ups on the equipment, did some other things that I surprised myself with. It was pretty cool. I also walked around while she played, played with her, just kept moving, it was great. I attempted a pull up on a bar, as you could probably guess, yeah, I wasn't able to do it. But, I tried. :)
I was determined to do a run, since I hadn't run since tuesday. Well, I fell short. I did about 2 minutes, and well, I had to stop. I think that the lack of sleep finallly caught up with me and my body. I went over and did the bike for a few minutes, then I did weights. I then went home and after my shower, went straight to bed. I fell right asleep.
my stats:
calories burned: 3127
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
will fill in the rest when I enter my food. Just wanted to make sure I got blogging done.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Friday, October 1, 2010
thursday
It is 2:30am on Friday morning, and I am working the last night this week, caring for 3 month old twins. I am actually working backwards and starting with yesterday, and going back and entering blog info for Wed and Tuesday also.
So, today I left work at 7:30am. I did not sleep at all last night, just worked on things on the computer and did things at this house for the family that I am working for. I have been tracking the twins all week to find patterns to their eating and sleeping at night, so I can help the family get the twins on a schedule, and that consumed a bit of time, of analyzing the past few days and planning on what to do to help. Anyway, I got home, took a quick shower and then a 3 hour nap. I had a dog walking job, right where I live, basically, so that felt really good to get a walk in, since I knew that I wasn't going to go to the gym in the evening. Then, off to work from 1-7. When I got home, I was a little hungry, but knew that I needed to sleep, and figured that if I waited and ate after that, maybe around 10:30, then I could last all night at the job. So, tried to sleep and couldn't...ugg!! I was tired, but my body just didn't want to sleep. So, as a result, I got iced tea again to keep me up all night.So, tomorrow(Friday) I will sleep in the morning and be able to go to bed early if I want to.
I talked about it on Monday, and it has proven to be the case...not getting my sleep, and the food is totally strange. I am eating more meals, but the seem to be smaller for the most part.
I have been keeping up with my wall push ups(110), but not the knee push ups or the crunches, so below you will see what I accomplished to catch up.
my stats:
did 110 wall push ups, 40 knee push ups and 375 crunches
**I owe for tues and wed..will do tonight inbetween baby feedings and post on friday's blog
no sleep overnight, but 3 hours this morning from 8am-11am
calories burned: 2989
calories consumed: 1290
calorie deficit: 1699
Thanks for reading. I would love to hear your input, especially if you are someone who regularly works a night shift..how do you manage the sleep and food thing?
Learning and Growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
So, today I left work at 7:30am. I did not sleep at all last night, just worked on things on the computer and did things at this house for the family that I am working for. I have been tracking the twins all week to find patterns to their eating and sleeping at night, so I can help the family get the twins on a schedule, and that consumed a bit of time, of analyzing the past few days and planning on what to do to help. Anyway, I got home, took a quick shower and then a 3 hour nap. I had a dog walking job, right where I live, basically, so that felt really good to get a walk in, since I knew that I wasn't going to go to the gym in the evening. Then, off to work from 1-7. When I got home, I was a little hungry, but knew that I needed to sleep, and figured that if I waited and ate after that, maybe around 10:30, then I could last all night at the job. So, tried to sleep and couldn't...ugg!! I was tired, but my body just didn't want to sleep. So, as a result, I got iced tea again to keep me up all night.So, tomorrow(Friday) I will sleep in the morning and be able to go to bed early if I want to.
I talked about it on Monday, and it has proven to be the case...not getting my sleep, and the food is totally strange. I am eating more meals, but the seem to be smaller for the most part.
I have been keeping up with my wall push ups(110), but not the knee push ups or the crunches, so below you will see what I accomplished to catch up.
my stats:
did 110 wall push ups, 40 knee push ups and 375 crunches
**I owe for tues and wed..will do tonight inbetween baby feedings and post on friday's blog
no sleep overnight, but 3 hours this morning from 8am-11am
calories burned: 2989
calories consumed: 1290
calorie deficit: 1699
Thanks for reading. I would love to hear your input, especially if you are someone who regularly works a night shift..how do you manage the sleep and food thing?
Learning and Growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
wednesday--cool new cruise stuff
Today was a cool day overall, but it was pretty busy too. I left the job, very tired at about 7:15am. I had to meet someone at 9am about dog walking. so, I took a shower and a short nap, then walked over to their apartment and did the meeting. Back home and more napping for about an hour or so, then took my sister and sister in law to the airport, took my phone in to be repaired, back home, lunch and then off to work at 2:30-7. I actually had to go back and pick up the phone after I went home. When I got there, it wasn't ready as promised. I was getting frustrated and fidgety. I realized how important my sleep is, and that I knew that I had to do what I had to do to meet my financial commitments, but I need to focus more on my mental attitude when I am sleep deprived. Good lesson to be reminded of. It was not a very active day, but I was still feeling blah after last night with the twins. After work, a 3 hour nap, then I broke down and got a huge iced tea to drink at the job in the evening.
Okay, I know, that doesn't sound like a cool day, but once I got to work, I had to do a bunch of stuff to sync my phone with my computer again, answer emails, all the stuff that I hadn't been doing. I knew that I needed to do the blog too, but I was just feeling like, UGG, too much to do!! Well, I remembered that I needed to choose the work outs for the cruise. Plus, I really hadn't looked much at it because I wanted it all paid for first, ya know? So, I started to look at what the cruise had to offer, what the schedule was like, and thought that since you are following this journey with me, you might like to hear about this "reward" and teaching that I have worked so hard for. So, here's sort of what the schedule looks like:
OH, there are the usual festivities throughout the cruise, but I thought I would just share with you the workouts/health related thigns that I am planning for and like I said, with the exception of the confirmed group work out with Jillian, the others are "preferences", so not positive that I will get into those work out slots.
day 1: 8:45pm, board plane to Florida
day 2: arrive at 5am. Then, I think I will take a cab to a 24 hour fitness, do a work out, get cleaned up, grab some breakfast and walk around a bit. I can get to the ship around 1 or so. I will get settled and hopefully meet some people and walk around a ton, but in the evening, my work out is:
Steve Lee - Thursday 7:00pm - Synergy
day 3: is a day at Great Stirrup Cay, Bahamas from 8am-5pm... however, I will also be doing 2 work outs... Madelene Karlsson - Friday 9:30am - Shred It With weights and then Jeanette Jenkins-5pm-kick boxing
day 4: is a day at Nassau, Bahamas from 8am-5pm, but I have a work out with Heidi Rhoades - Saturday 8:30am - Yoga ... then my group work out with Jillian at 7:15pm, and a group discussion done by Jillian at 9pm
day 5: first work out is with Marco Borges - Sunday 10:00am - Spinning ... then at 3pm is a 5K fun run!! so, I will try my first attempt at a 5K not on the treadmill!!
*****Okay, it is Saturday, and I just realized that I don't get all 5 of my classes that I put down as preferences, they will give me one..duh!! But, there is a chance i can go do other ones..i will have to see when I get there!!
my stats:
calories burned: 2930
calories consumed: 1775
calorie deficit:1155
babies need me...will add more in a bit
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Okay, I know, that doesn't sound like a cool day, but once I got to work, I had to do a bunch of stuff to sync my phone with my computer again, answer emails, all the stuff that I hadn't been doing. I knew that I needed to do the blog too, but I was just feeling like, UGG, too much to do!! Well, I remembered that I needed to choose the work outs for the cruise. Plus, I really hadn't looked much at it because I wanted it all paid for first, ya know? So, I started to look at what the cruise had to offer, what the schedule was like, and thought that since you are following this journey with me, you might like to hear about this "reward" and teaching that I have worked so hard for. So, here's sort of what the schedule looks like:
OH, there are the usual festivities throughout the cruise, but I thought I would just share with you the workouts/health related thigns that I am planning for and like I said, with the exception of the confirmed group work out with Jillian, the others are "preferences", so not positive that I will get into those work out slots.
day 1: 8:45pm, board plane to Florida
day 2: arrive at 5am. Then, I think I will take a cab to a 24 hour fitness, do a work out, get cleaned up, grab some breakfast and walk around a bit. I can get to the ship around 1 or so. I will get settled and hopefully meet some people and walk around a ton, but in the evening, my work out is:
Steve Lee - Thursday 7:00pm - Synergy
day 3: is a day at Great Stirrup Cay, Bahamas from 8am-5pm... however, I will also be doing 2 work outs... Madelene Karlsson - Friday 9:30am - Shred It With weights and then Jeanette Jenkins-5pm-kick boxing
day 4: is a day at Nassau, Bahamas from 8am-5pm, but I have a work out with Heidi Rhoades - Saturday 8:30am - Yoga ... then my group work out with Jillian at 7:15pm, and a group discussion done by Jillian at 9pm
day 5: first work out is with Marco Borges - Sunday 10:00am - Spinning ... then at 3pm is a 5K fun run!! so, I will try my first attempt at a 5K not on the treadmill!!
*****Okay, it is Saturday, and I just realized that I don't get all 5 of my classes that I put down as preferences, they will give me one..duh!! But, there is a chance i can go do other ones..i will have to see when I get there!!
my stats:
calories burned: 2930
calories consumed: 1775
calorie deficit:1155
babies need me...will add more in a bit
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
tuesday and last day of C25K!!
I finished the second night of watching the twins from 11pm-7am. It went well, but had a little trouble being awake the whole time, so I think I did a 20 minute doze at one point. My back was bothering me, so I went to the chiropractor, and then home and slept for 7 hours, it was great. I didn't have to be anywhere until 8pm, so I did the dishes and some laundry, made my meals, it was great. I knew the week would be a little crazy with the overnight job and working 4 afternoons too, so I wanted to take advantage of the time at home.
I planned on doing all of my crunches and push ups, but just didn't do everything...results below.
I knew that I had to run, so I finally went out into the 98 degree heat and went to the gym. I decided that as much as I like to use the machine at 24 hour fitness, I would just use the treadmill at the gym where I live. I got there, and started my walk, and my iPod died!! I can't believe I forgot to charge it. Oh well, I know that some events like the 5K don't allow them, so I just dealt with it. I mean, seriously, what was I going to do, say "oh, my ipod is dead, I can't run?" I don't think so. Today was my last 30 minute run on the C25K program, and I wanted to finish it so bad! About 3 minutes into my run, I just felt tired and really didn't want to run, but the dream of completing this "task" and hitting my goal of doing the entire program outweighed the discomfort and lack of desire I had to not run. So, I dug down deep and just ran, and ran, and ran until I got to 5 minutes left, then I had to really just mentally pass the hurdle. I started to talk to myself, reminding myself of what I am working for, reminding myself that if I quit, I was going to throw away all of those 25 minutes that I ran, and have to do this run another day. Okay, that clinched it for me, I didn't want to do it all over again. So, then I started to look around the gym at all of the people and some thoughts occurred to me, and I thought that I would share them with you...
I was looking at all of the people and I just started to think about Vanity. Most people say, "oh, it will be great if I look better, but I just want to be healthy" right? I see these people lifting weights, they are a healthy weight, and they look in the mirrors in the gym, and their muscles getting bigger. That isn't to be healthier, it's about the way they look. Now, I'm not trying to just say "those people" because I want my body to look a certain way too. I mean if it was all about just being healthy, then people would just eat healthier, and not buy all the food that is unhealthy, right? I'm not really sure why I wanted to bring this up, besides that it was just something that was interesting that I noticed. What are your thoughts on this, or are you just thinking..so, what's the point? I think that my point is that maybe we can all be a little more honest about the whole thing, and admit that it is about more than just feeling and being healthy, it's about the results of how we will look that often push us out of our comfort zone to do the real hard work in the gym.
Then I went to my meeting and then headed to the overnight job again. I was soo tired, and basically sat in the big recliner in between diapers and feedings and dozed in and out until about 4 or 5 in the morning.
I got an email tonight that said now that my cruise is paid for, I need to pick 5 workouts with various trainers on different days/times that I would prefer on the cruise!! I will do it on Wednesday night, it's due by Friday!!
my stats:
did 110 wall push ups, bent knee push ups and crunches carried over to Wednesday.
calories burned: 2876
calories consumed:1843
calorie deficit: 1033
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
I planned on doing all of my crunches and push ups, but just didn't do everything...results below.
I knew that I had to run, so I finally went out into the 98 degree heat and went to the gym. I decided that as much as I like to use the machine at 24 hour fitness, I would just use the treadmill at the gym where I live. I got there, and started my walk, and my iPod died!! I can't believe I forgot to charge it. Oh well, I know that some events like the 5K don't allow them, so I just dealt with it. I mean, seriously, what was I going to do, say "oh, my ipod is dead, I can't run?" I don't think so. Today was my last 30 minute run on the C25K program, and I wanted to finish it so bad! About 3 minutes into my run, I just felt tired and really didn't want to run, but the dream of completing this "task" and hitting my goal of doing the entire program outweighed the discomfort and lack of desire I had to not run. So, I dug down deep and just ran, and ran, and ran until I got to 5 minutes left, then I had to really just mentally pass the hurdle. I started to talk to myself, reminding myself of what I am working for, reminding myself that if I quit, I was going to throw away all of those 25 minutes that I ran, and have to do this run another day. Okay, that clinched it for me, I didn't want to do it all over again. So, then I started to look around the gym at all of the people and some thoughts occurred to me, and I thought that I would share them with you...
I was looking at all of the people and I just started to think about Vanity. Most people say, "oh, it will be great if I look better, but I just want to be healthy" right? I see these people lifting weights, they are a healthy weight, and they look in the mirrors in the gym, and their muscles getting bigger. That isn't to be healthier, it's about the way they look. Now, I'm not trying to just say "those people" because I want my body to look a certain way too. I mean if it was all about just being healthy, then people would just eat healthier, and not buy all the food that is unhealthy, right? I'm not really sure why I wanted to bring this up, besides that it was just something that was interesting that I noticed. What are your thoughts on this, or are you just thinking..so, what's the point? I think that my point is that maybe we can all be a little more honest about the whole thing, and admit that it is about more than just feeling and being healthy, it's about the results of how we will look that often push us out of our comfort zone to do the real hard work in the gym.
Then I went to my meeting and then headed to the overnight job again. I was soo tired, and basically sat in the big recliner in between diapers and feedings and dozed in and out until about 4 or 5 in the morning.
I got an email tonight that said now that my cruise is paid for, I need to pick 5 workouts with various trainers on different days/times that I would prefer on the cruise!! I will do it on Wednesday night, it's due by Friday!!
my stats:
did 110 wall push ups, bent knee push ups and crunches carried over to Wednesday.
calories burned: 2876
calories consumed:1843
calorie deficit: 1033
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
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