After my marathon work schedule, I'm sure you can imagine, last night I SLEPT really well!!
It was not an extraordinary day in my journey, because all I did was work, eat, take a bath(while I watched episode 3 of biggest loser on my laptop) and sleep. At my afternoon job, I did play a bit at the park with the boy I was watching, but nothing major.
Since I don't have much to post, I thought I'd just post a bunch of quotes that I have been picking up lately that I will be posting on my wall at home this weekend...They seem to help me, so thought you might enjoy them. If not, make today your masterpiece, you have control over that!!
"We are what we do repeatedly do. Excellence then is not an act, but a habit"-Aristotle
"Chaos and opportunity are born of the same thing"
"more people have purpose in their life when they see your example"
"What have we learned to tollerate because we are done being stuck and doing the same thing over time?" (have we gotten comfortable in our rut?)
"Awareness is the greatest agen for change"-Eckhart Tolle
"Ultimately, teh only power to which man shoulr aspire is taht which he exercises over himself"-Elle Wiesel (I think I got this from Hoss' blog)
The following come from a book I am reading by Brian P. Moran author the 12 week year) through my business, but I see that I can apply so much to this journey too!
"It's not what you know; it's not even who you know; it's what you implement that counts."
"you can't build a reputation on what you're going to do"
"the nottion that there is plenty of time in a year has a detrimental effet on performance."
"Ultimately effective execution happens daily and weekly"
"A deadline is a terrific motivator. The most active time is just before somethign is due" (I must add that unfortunately, in moving towards a healthier weight, you can't wait until the last day to do the work. It is a daily commitment)
"in a 12-week year there is clearly no time to put off or procrastinate"
"...you can increase your current results by up to 4 times or more! Not by working harder but by focusin on the activites that matter most, maintaining a sense of urgency to get those things done, and shedding low-value things that keep you stuck."
(I will add that in a journey towards a weight goal, you will have to work harder also in the gym, but if you apply this to just a healthier lifestyle, focusing on how to do that and doing itI can see huge results!)
"an aspiration or desire means little without a plan to get there"
"Take accountability for your own results--it is the only path to lasting success"
These come from the book, but are by other authors that are noted:
"Always bear in mind taht your own resolution to succeed is more important than any one thing"-Abraham Lincoln
"Unless commitment is made, there are only promises and hopes; but no plans"-Peter F. Drucker
"Effort only fully releases its reward after a person refuses to quit"-napoleon Hill
"what you do is create a vision of who you want to be, and then live into that picture as if it were already true"-Arnold Schwarzeneggar in 1976, describing how he planned to become the #1 box office star in Hollywood
If you are still reading, great, hopefully these will help to move you closer any goal you are working towards! The last quote I want to leave you with really speaks to all of us who prefer to have our "ducks in a row", "all planets alligned", however you want to say it. Really, none of that matters at all, the only things that matter are that:
"life happens in the moment"-Brian P. Moran
and what Pema Chondron said:
"Start where you are"
ADDED THURSDAY NIGHT..I FOUND IT ON MY BLOG ON THE SIDE BAR UNDER "FITNESS TIPS OF THE DAY": Surround yourself with people and things that remind you to live a healthy lifestyle.
Learning and Growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
choosing me first
It is Wednesday morning, and I have a minute to let you know about my Tuesday/early morning Wednesday. Now, you might read this and think "come on, get to the point"..trust me after the chaos, I will. Thanks for reading!!
Tuesday started fairly slow. When this new schedule started, it was not easy to get up at 5:30, but I was excited about the new schedule and so I was getting out of bed easier. Now, not quite as easy. But, I got up a little later, I packed my food and headed to 8am-1pm job. Not very active EVER at this job, butI hope that in time it will be a little bit more active. I then went to my 1:15-6:15 job, which is always more active, and I love it..even if I am folding laundry or changing the sheets. Usually it is running around with the kids. Today, it was just me and Joe for most of the afternoon, and he wanted to go to the skateboard park. Whoo hoo!! While he was skateboarding, I walked 5.14K in 52min. Not record breaking, but I was in jeans, and the wrong shoes. My sister Catie says that it qualifies as a race walking pace..seemed slow to me.
Okay, so I got off of work, and realized that I was one meal short!! I soooo wanted to just go get a gluten free pizza at Amici's, but I didn't. I went to whole foods and got steamed veggies and rosemary potatoes and ate some nuts. yummy dinner!! From there, I headed to my meeting and then went home. I had to watch the twins at midnight. I was tired and wanted to sleep, but when I tried, I just started obsessing about sleeping through my alarm and being late, so I couldn't sleep. I did a few things around my apartment..laundry, straightening up, packed up clothes and food for Wednesday and then it was basically time to leave for an overnight with the twins (12am-6:30am). I hoped that they would sleep really well so that I could sleep too. They slept wonerfully!!! Unfortunately, I did not...too worried I wouldn't wake up if I heard them. That hasn't happened before, usually I can sleep. So, left work, went to jamba juice for breakfast(yes, it was planned). I was able to take about a 30 min power nap in my car. Now I am at work and the little girl is still asleep. After taking her to school at 1, I will go home and take a nap before evening job. When I get home, I have to do the dishes and prepare some food for tomorrow, but while the food is in the oven, I look forward to trying out the new lifecycle! Hopefully, my body will not be too exhausted!!
So, why did I tell you all of this?? I want to show you that I totally understand a busy schedule, putting everyone else first. I get that you have kids and have to run them around for their activities, prepare food for them and yourself, get the household chores done, go to a job, oh, and of course...find time to work out!! I get that you are tired, I am soo tired too. I am finding myself asking, "okay, so what do I need to do to change that?" Okay, don't just say "duh, go to bed earlier and get some sleep!!" I think this is a VERY commong problem. We often use these things as excuses not to exercise, right? At my TEAM meeting last night, the speaker, Jim Jones, reminded us to look at what is most important. Obviously your family, friends, finances, and faith might top your list. For me, those things are really important. However, like they say when you take an airplane, "put your oxygen mask on yourself, then assist others." As I'm sure you know, that's because you are no good to anyone if you aren't there. Focusing on my fitness will help me be there for my friends and family. It might take awhile, paying the price and not spending as much time as I would like to with my friends and family, but when I hit these fitness goals, I will be healthier and have more energy and time to spend with them.
Well, when I left the twins this morning, she asked if I could come back next Tuesday night. I told her that I would let her know. Then, I started ooking at my schedule and realized that if I want to change my life and have better overall health, then I need to choose me first. That means getting the sleep that I need, the foods I need and the activity that I need. I get those things if I am working around the clock. So, I emailed them and told them no.
What is most important to you in your life? I know that you love your kids, husband, parents..whoever more than anything!! I also know that they all want you to be around a long time. But they all know when you are not yourself, you know, when you're "off" a bit because you haven't been taking care of yourself and you are running yourself ragged and you even have a bit shorter temper at times. Your kids sense this more than anyone usually. They all want you to be the best mom, dad, aunt, uncle, brother, sister, grandma, grandpa or friend that you can be, and you can't be that if you are not willing to chose yourself first.
So, with all of that said, this is talking to me as much as it is talking to you. I am putting myself first. Finances are important, but I need to come up with a different solution than working these crazy long overnight hours.
Good luck, I'd love to hear how you are putting yourself first today!!
Learning and growing into a healthier me!!
~Cindy LOu
Tuesday started fairly slow. When this new schedule started, it was not easy to get up at 5:30, but I was excited about the new schedule and so I was getting out of bed easier. Now, not quite as easy. But, I got up a little later, I packed my food and headed to 8am-1pm job. Not very active EVER at this job, butI hope that in time it will be a little bit more active. I then went to my 1:15-6:15 job, which is always more active, and I love it..even if I am folding laundry or changing the sheets. Usually it is running around with the kids. Today, it was just me and Joe for most of the afternoon, and he wanted to go to the skateboard park. Whoo hoo!! While he was skateboarding, I walked 5.14K in 52min. Not record breaking, but I was in jeans, and the wrong shoes. My sister Catie says that it qualifies as a race walking pace..seemed slow to me.
Okay, so I got off of work, and realized that I was one meal short!! I soooo wanted to just go get a gluten free pizza at Amici's, but I didn't. I went to whole foods and got steamed veggies and rosemary potatoes and ate some nuts. yummy dinner!! From there, I headed to my meeting and then went home. I had to watch the twins at midnight. I was tired and wanted to sleep, but when I tried, I just started obsessing about sleeping through my alarm and being late, so I couldn't sleep. I did a few things around my apartment..laundry, straightening up, packed up clothes and food for Wednesday and then it was basically time to leave for an overnight with the twins (12am-6:30am). I hoped that they would sleep really well so that I could sleep too. They slept wonerfully!!! Unfortunately, I did not...too worried I wouldn't wake up if I heard them. That hasn't happened before, usually I can sleep. So, left work, went to jamba juice for breakfast(yes, it was planned). I was able to take about a 30 min power nap in my car. Now I am at work and the little girl is still asleep. After taking her to school at 1, I will go home and take a nap before evening job. When I get home, I have to do the dishes and prepare some food for tomorrow, but while the food is in the oven, I look forward to trying out the new lifecycle! Hopefully, my body will not be too exhausted!!
So, why did I tell you all of this?? I want to show you that I totally understand a busy schedule, putting everyone else first. I get that you have kids and have to run them around for their activities, prepare food for them and yourself, get the household chores done, go to a job, oh, and of course...find time to work out!! I get that you are tired, I am soo tired too. I am finding myself asking, "okay, so what do I need to do to change that?" Okay, don't just say "duh, go to bed earlier and get some sleep!!" I think this is a VERY commong problem. We often use these things as excuses not to exercise, right? At my TEAM meeting last night, the speaker, Jim Jones, reminded us to look at what is most important. Obviously your family, friends, finances, and faith might top your list. For me, those things are really important. However, like they say when you take an airplane, "put your oxygen mask on yourself, then assist others." As I'm sure you know, that's because you are no good to anyone if you aren't there. Focusing on my fitness will help me be there for my friends and family. It might take awhile, paying the price and not spending as much time as I would like to with my friends and family, but when I hit these fitness goals, I will be healthier and have more energy and time to spend with them.
Well, when I left the twins this morning, she asked if I could come back next Tuesday night. I told her that I would let her know. Then, I started ooking at my schedule and realized that if I want to change my life and have better overall health, then I need to choose me first. That means getting the sleep that I need, the foods I need and the activity that I need. I get those things if I am working around the clock. So, I emailed them and told them no.
What is most important to you in your life? I know that you love your kids, husband, parents..whoever more than anything!! I also know that they all want you to be around a long time. But they all know when you are not yourself, you know, when you're "off" a bit because you haven't been taking care of yourself and you are running yourself ragged and you even have a bit shorter temper at times. Your kids sense this more than anyone usually. They all want you to be the best mom, dad, aunt, uncle, brother, sister, grandma, grandpa or friend that you can be, and you can't be that if you are not willing to chose yourself first.
So, with all of that said, this is talking to me as much as it is talking to you. I am putting myself first. Finances are important, but I need to come up with a different solution than working these crazy long overnight hours.
Good luck, I'd love to hear how you are putting yourself first today!!
Learning and growing into a healthier me!!
~Cindy LOu
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
are you in control of your time, or is it in control of you?
It is Tuesday morning, and I am reflecting on yesterday...
No weigh in..scale is messed up..time for new one.
What is wrong with me? A very inactive day today at work. Also feeling tired. Not enough sleep, and in my 'text confession' to Allison, I said, "As much as I try and fight it, I just have to make myself go to bed and get my 7/8 hours of sleep in." I think I have said it before, but I will say it again, I do not like that I have to spend time sleeping, preparing food and eating. I wish that I could just take a pill to not have to do these things. However, I'm not in "La-La Land" and I am just a human, and I need to do these thigns. So, what's the reason that I don't like to do them? I have no idea. It's not like I have no time. Well, sometimes it is because I have no time, but for the most part, I have the time, I jsut want to do other things. It all comes down to my priorities. What is most important to me. What am I working towards? what will make the biggest impact in my life? is it TV?-NO, is it work-NO(though sometimes I need to do more of that than I'd like for financial reasons)...it HAS to be my health.
I decided to revisit what I posted on 1-1-11...the dear abby thing. go check it out if you need a reminder about "just for today". I think it will move me forward. A new game plan is in order, because what I am doing and thinking isn't working.
--I will be taking Allison advice and tracking my food and seeing which foods are carrying me through and for how long and I will be sending my food log to Sabra at the end of the week for her to look at.
--as silly as it sounds, I will make sure that my list of "have-to's" are done before I get to anything fun, like chilling out and watching a DVD or reading a book that is not part of my business or my health goals..things like that.
--I will write into my schedule my work out times and what exercise/activities I will be doing that day.
--I will also post here daily and start to give you stats about calorie intake/burn/deficit again to hold myself accountable so that I can see what I did and where I need to improve.----I did this in the beginning, and when I stopped, things in my body changed. why would I stop what was working?
--By Sunday, I will have photos, quotes and goals ALL posted on my wall(it only has a few on there now). Photos from the cruise and all the people who have helped me on my journey will be up there for sure!
I want to leave you with a quote that I saw on facebook today. I boy I used to do some nanny work with years ago has grown into a great young man, and he posted this(thanks, Cannon for your reminder!)--no idea who originally said it,
"A man who dares to waste one hour of his time has not discovered the value of life."
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
No weigh in..scale is messed up..time for new one.
What is wrong with me? A very inactive day today at work. Also feeling tired. Not enough sleep, and in my 'text confession' to Allison, I said, "As much as I try and fight it, I just have to make myself go to bed and get my 7/8 hours of sleep in." I think I have said it before, but I will say it again, I do not like that I have to spend time sleeping, preparing food and eating. I wish that I could just take a pill to not have to do these things. However, I'm not in "La-La Land" and I am just a human, and I need to do these thigns. So, what's the reason that I don't like to do them? I have no idea. It's not like I have no time. Well, sometimes it is because I have no time, but for the most part, I have the time, I jsut want to do other things. It all comes down to my priorities. What is most important to me. What am I working towards? what will make the biggest impact in my life? is it TV?-NO, is it work-NO(though sometimes I need to do more of that than I'd like for financial reasons)...it HAS to be my health.
I decided to revisit what I posted on 1-1-11...the dear abby thing. go check it out if you need a reminder about "just for today". I think it will move me forward. A new game plan is in order, because what I am doing and thinking isn't working.
--I will be taking Allison advice and tracking my food and seeing which foods are carrying me through and for how long and I will be sending my food log to Sabra at the end of the week for her to look at.
--as silly as it sounds, I will make sure that my list of "have-to's" are done before I get to anything fun, like chilling out and watching a DVD or reading a book that is not part of my business or my health goals..things like that.
--I will write into my schedule my work out times and what exercise/activities I will be doing that day.
--I will also post here daily and start to give you stats about calorie intake/burn/deficit again to hold myself accountable so that I can see what I did and where I need to improve.----I did this in the beginning, and when I stopped, things in my body changed. why would I stop what was working?
--By Sunday, I will have photos, quotes and goals ALL posted on my wall(it only has a few on there now). Photos from the cruise and all the people who have helped me on my journey will be up there for sure!
I want to leave you with a quote that I saw on facebook today. I boy I used to do some nanny work with years ago has grown into a great young man, and he posted this(thanks, Cannon for your reminder!)--no idea who originally said it,
"A man who dares to waste one hour of his time has not discovered the value of life."
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Monday, February 7, 2011
what does my body really need??
Started the day out after 6 hours of sleep by going on a walk with a friend. It was such a great way to start the day!! Then I headed over to Santa Cruz where I hung out with the girls that I used to nanny. My day was going so great!! I have no idea what happened from there. It is so funny how that happens. I did the stuff around my apartment that I needed to do, and I did stuff on the computer that REALLY needed to get done. I was feeling a bit tired all day. I had a bit more dairy than I usually would on Saturday, so maybe that explained it, not sure. I tried to really focus on what my body really needs. Obviously the bottom line is calories in vs calories out. Finding the time that my body needs those calories, and how to use those calories efficiently. We are all different, and like Allison was telling me, finding out what is best for MY body is what is important. So, I have been really trying to see which foods are sustaining my hunger, and how often I am feeling hungry. I know that i am drinking enough water, getting my daily vitamins and my fruits and veggies..now to conquer the protien and total calories and division of calories.
I didn't do any work out on the equipment last night..I take that back, I got on the bike, but my stomach was bothering me a lot--think that could be the dairy from yesterday too--so I stopped.
That's it for now. Oh, I have set up morning walks with friends for next Saturday and Sunday. I am so excited! I hope to set up the rest of those days with things that are active and I know I have some "HAVE TO" things on my list too.
Going to make this happen and use the encouragement and support from so many of you to help me work through these challenges.
thanks everyone!!
Learning and growing into a heathier me!
~Cindy Lou
I didn't do any work out on the equipment last night..I take that back, I got on the bike, but my stomach was bothering me a lot--think that could be the dairy from yesterday too--so I stopped.
That's it for now. Oh, I have set up morning walks with friends for next Saturday and Sunday. I am so excited! I hope to set up the rest of those days with things that are active and I know I have some "HAVE TO" things on my list too.
Going to make this happen and use the encouragement and support from so many of you to help me work through these challenges.
thanks everyone!!
Learning and growing into a heathier me!
~Cindy Lou
Sunday, February 6, 2011
new and improved..Thank you Lisa and Matt!!!
No, I didn't get some crazy plastic surgery or a make over. However, my apartment did! Like I mentioned, I picked up a Lifecycle 5500 and a Landice 17 treadmill, courtesy of a couple that I work for on Tuesdays and Thursdays, Matt and Lisa. They are updating their home gym and were getting rid of these two pieces and asked if I would like to have them. So, the remainder of this journey to my goal weight is officially dedicated to Lisa and Matt. Thank you, thank you a million times thank you, I will make you happy that you chose to give these to me!
In addition, as you can see, the blog has a new look too! I put a few things like food tip, fitness tip and motivational quote, and daily dare and a BMI calculator. We'll see if they prove worthy to stay on the blog, or if they are just clutter. I also added a couple of links! Jeanette Jenkins and Marco Borges websites. Would love to get feedback on what you think!
I got 11 hours of sleep, and woke up a bit refreshed, but very stiff from sleeping so long. I took my time getting ready, and then off to a job from 2-8. This job worked out really well, took a walk with the boy I was watching, and did a ton of dishes for the family. After I got home, just woked on the blog and did a few things here. Also trying to get some things out of my apartment on freecycle and craigslist too!
Calorie intake is a tricky thing I am trying to figure out. I have actually started to think about trying a different schedule. I used Jeanette Jenkins calorie per day calculator, and it said that I needed about 2424 calories per day to maintain my weight. That FREAKED ME OUT!!! I wrote to Jeanette to ask about what to do if I am trying to decrease my weight. Luckily I found a response to someone else that said to decrease my calories by 500/day and that would be 1 pound per week. I am still waiting to find out for sure, and need to read more in her book. she also recommends eating every 2-3 hours, so 6/7 meals a day. I have been experimenting a bit trying to figure out what might work better..this or Jillian's 4 meals a day. Results of the experiment will show up on Monday probably, but I will keep it up for a week longer too, to see what I find out--I'll let you know!
I am off to bed and excited about a walk with my new friend, Beth, in the morning!!
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
In addition, as you can see, the blog has a new look too! I put a few things like food tip, fitness tip and motivational quote, and daily dare and a BMI calculator. We'll see if they prove worthy to stay on the blog, or if they are just clutter. I also added a couple of links! Jeanette Jenkins and Marco Borges websites. Would love to get feedback on what you think!
I got 11 hours of sleep, and woke up a bit refreshed, but very stiff from sleeping so long. I took my time getting ready, and then off to a job from 2-8. This job worked out really well, took a walk with the boy I was watching, and did a ton of dishes for the family. After I got home, just woked on the blog and did a few things here. Also trying to get some things out of my apartment on freecycle and craigslist too!
Calorie intake is a tricky thing I am trying to figure out. I have actually started to think about trying a different schedule. I used Jeanette Jenkins calorie per day calculator, and it said that I needed about 2424 calories per day to maintain my weight. That FREAKED ME OUT!!! I wrote to Jeanette to ask about what to do if I am trying to decrease my weight. Luckily I found a response to someone else that said to decrease my calories by 500/day and that would be 1 pound per week. I am still waiting to find out for sure, and need to read more in her book. she also recommends eating every 2-3 hours, so 6/7 meals a day. I have been experimenting a bit trying to figure out what might work better..this or Jillian's 4 meals a day. Results of the experiment will show up on Monday probably, but I will keep it up for a week longer too, to see what I find out--I'll let you know!
I am off to bed and excited about a walk with my new friend, Beth, in the morning!!
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
stay awake, even if it's not the best for you
Not super proud of the last two days (Thursday and Friday). Luckily, I knew there was a light at the end of the tunnel!!
Here's the schedule that I worked:
6am-wake up, cook meals for the day.
8am-1pm... work
1:15-6:15-2nd... job
7:30ish...dinner, clean and rearrange apartment, shower
(friday)midnight-6:30am...3rd job (twins overnight)--about 2 hours of sleep
power nap, breakfast
9am-noon...work
----relaxing lunch with friend!!, a few errands
3:30pm-6:30..pick up my treadmill and lifecycle, visit with family that helped me move the exercise equipment
7:30--------EXHAUSTED and ready for bed
Crazy, right???? yeah, I agree. decided to watch a dvd on my laptop while I took a relaxing bath before bed. I was so tired that at my usual bath threshhold of 30 minutes, I was too tired to get out of the bath! finally about 9pm, I got an important phone call that got me out of the tub.
So as you can see, no time for the gym(except the physical labor of totally cleaning and rearranging my apartment and moving the exercise equipment), I ate fairly well, and sleep was a little messed up...okay, A LOT messed up !!! I don't have to be up until noon on Saturday, thank goodness!!!
As I sat down to eat dinner, I was looking at the equipment, adn feeling a little guilty for not workign out at that minute. I know, after those two days, no chance I could have worked out, but gets me thinking that having them here will probably make me use it more, and THAT is a good thing!! I know that I need to still go to the gym and check out classes, but maybe having them here will make it easier for me to do an extra workout each day. I was thinking that I MIGHT be able to do that morning workout thing, at least a mini one. Time will tell!
This is sort of challenging for me. I talk about learning lessons, the finances being a challenge, tips on how to overcome and let you know what I am doing to move forward and what I am struggling with. Now I need to put it all together and make up an effective game plan that has measurable results within a certain timeline.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Here's the schedule that I worked:
6am-wake up, cook meals for the day.
8am-1pm... work
1:15-6:15-2nd... job
7:30ish...dinner, clean and rearrange apartment, shower
(friday)midnight-6:30am...3rd job (twins overnight)--about 2 hours of sleep
power nap, breakfast
9am-noon...work
----relaxing lunch with friend!!, a few errands
3:30pm-6:30..pick up my treadmill and lifecycle, visit with family that helped me move the exercise equipment
7:30--------EXHAUSTED and ready for bed
Crazy, right???? yeah, I agree. decided to watch a dvd on my laptop while I took a relaxing bath before bed. I was so tired that at my usual bath threshhold of 30 minutes, I was too tired to get out of the bath! finally about 9pm, I got an important phone call that got me out of the tub.
So as you can see, no time for the gym(except the physical labor of totally cleaning and rearranging my apartment and moving the exercise equipment), I ate fairly well, and sleep was a little messed up...okay, A LOT messed up !!! I don't have to be up until noon on Saturday, thank goodness!!!
As I sat down to eat dinner, I was looking at the equipment, adn feeling a little guilty for not workign out at that minute. I know, after those two days, no chance I could have worked out, but gets me thinking that having them here will probably make me use it more, and THAT is a good thing!! I know that I need to still go to the gym and check out classes, but maybe having them here will make it easier for me to do an extra workout each day. I was thinking that I MIGHT be able to do that morning workout thing, at least a mini one. Time will tell!
This is sort of challenging for me. I talk about learning lessons, the finances being a challenge, tips on how to overcome and let you know what I am doing to move forward and what I am struggling with. Now I need to put it all together and make up an effective game plan that has measurable results within a certain timeline.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Friday, February 4, 2011
once again..the lesson is repeated until the lesson is learned
I can not believe that it has been about a week since I posted last.
Tuesday I walked 5K while one of the kids was at the skateboard park, but other than that, there has been no gym or anything. On Monday, I fell and hurt the left leg. As Alison said, "you are a mess." I totally agree, but I think that will soon change. Here is what I wrote out Thursday morning when I had a few spare moments, but not by a computer:
Not sure that I know where to begin. It has been busy, but not at the things I need to be busy at!The past week as been teaching me so much, but I only am realizing it now that I am taking time to reflect. I guess that's why it is important to meditate and reflect daily, huh?
Someone asked me, "aren't you frustrated?" I repy "about what?" them, "about going so fast and steady on your journey, then hitting a wall, gaining, just not being done yet?" My reply, "yes."
First, "gee, thanks for the uplifing conversation." haha The fact is, yes, I am very frustrated. I have been taught that someone isn't a leader if they are not frustrated because it means they have stopped trying to grow and get better. Second, my journey will never be over(done)..well, until I leave the earth, right?
So, let's look at this exchange I had with this person. Yes, i started out fast, driven and focused and accomplished a lot. I was also wasn't working 40 hours every week. I had the luxury of time, which I am so thankful for, because it helped me understand the food part quite a bit more. I want to stop gaining and hitting a wall, of course! Unfortunately, I ceary haven't learned the lessons and lifestyle properly, because they keep repeating. I think that I have said it before--the lesson is repeated until the lesson is learned.
What lesson this time??? Well, without a doubt, when I am stressed/worried about something, my reaction is to eat. It's ike a strange feeling. It's almost like when I have been on prednisone, and I am starving all day, nothing satisfies my appetite at a and I just keep eating. Last night, I just kept trying to figure out why I respond to stress that way, and I think I actually might have a good possibility why. I could be totally wrong, but atleast I'm thinking through it a bit, right?
Here's my theory. At about 9 or 10 years old, maybe earlier, I would get upsset or worried about something. i don't remember anyone asking me how I was feeling. they may have, i just really don't recall that being the case. I wasn't big at expressing my feelings, maybe because as a young child when i voiced my opinion, my dad would yell and get mad at me--yes, it was usually about food. So, suppressing my feelings, not learning how to express them or work through them much was a big challenge. I guess I just would eat something, because I knew that if i ate something that i liked, it would take my mind off of what was bothering/upsetting me. Another thought is that like so many parents, maybe my parents used food to comfort me when I was upset about something. For example, I'm screaming and crying and they want me to stop, so they say something like, "if you stop crying you can have a treat." I have no idea if that happened, but like I mentioned..these are theories. It's noone's fault and like Hoss talked abou tin his blog, the past doesn't matter, I control my own destiny in the health and fitness area, and I need to make healthy choices every day and be more "present" in my day and with each thing I am doing.
From 2-10 years old, I lived acorss the street from a great family! Over the years we have totally stayed in touch, in fact, my mom is best friends with the mom, Lee. "Uncle" Chuck and "Aunt" Lee, along with their 3 daughters, Toni, Suzi and Nancy are like family to me. Wednesday, we lost Uncle Chuck. He was surrounded by his family as he passed, and it leaves such a gap in my heart and my heart just aches for the family that he left behind.
This is the reason I started to really think about my stress eating. Last night I was thinking, "I know that I can't fix this of help this, i don't know what to do." eating...lol. I thought about my life and my parents a lot.
Uncle Chuck, I will carry you in my heart. Aunt Lee, Toni, Suzi and Nancy, I love you all!
For thursday, I will make healthier choices!!
Please think about the words you use with your children, especially when talking about food.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Tuesday I walked 5K while one of the kids was at the skateboard park, but other than that, there has been no gym or anything. On Monday, I fell and hurt the left leg. As Alison said, "you are a mess." I totally agree, but I think that will soon change. Here is what I wrote out Thursday morning when I had a few spare moments, but not by a computer:
Not sure that I know where to begin. It has been busy, but not at the things I need to be busy at!The past week as been teaching me so much, but I only am realizing it now that I am taking time to reflect. I guess that's why it is important to meditate and reflect daily, huh?
Someone asked me, "aren't you frustrated?" I repy "about what?" them, "about going so fast and steady on your journey, then hitting a wall, gaining, just not being done yet?" My reply, "yes."
First, "gee, thanks for the uplifing conversation." haha The fact is, yes, I am very frustrated. I have been taught that someone isn't a leader if they are not frustrated because it means they have stopped trying to grow and get better. Second, my journey will never be over(done)..well, until I leave the earth, right?
So, let's look at this exchange I had with this person. Yes, i started out fast, driven and focused and accomplished a lot. I was also wasn't working 40 hours every week. I had the luxury of time, which I am so thankful for, because it helped me understand the food part quite a bit more. I want to stop gaining and hitting a wall, of course! Unfortunately, I ceary haven't learned the lessons and lifestyle properly, because they keep repeating. I think that I have said it before--the lesson is repeated until the lesson is learned.
What lesson this time??? Well, without a doubt, when I am stressed/worried about something, my reaction is to eat. It's ike a strange feeling. It's almost like when I have been on prednisone, and I am starving all day, nothing satisfies my appetite at a and I just keep eating. Last night, I just kept trying to figure out why I respond to stress that way, and I think I actually might have a good possibility why. I could be totally wrong, but atleast I'm thinking through it a bit, right?
Here's my theory. At about 9 or 10 years old, maybe earlier, I would get upsset or worried about something. i don't remember anyone asking me how I was feeling. they may have, i just really don't recall that being the case. I wasn't big at expressing my feelings, maybe because as a young child when i voiced my opinion, my dad would yell and get mad at me--yes, it was usually about food. So, suppressing my feelings, not learning how to express them or work through them much was a big challenge. I guess I just would eat something, because I knew that if i ate something that i liked, it would take my mind off of what was bothering/upsetting me. Another thought is that like so many parents, maybe my parents used food to comfort me when I was upset about something. For example, I'm screaming and crying and they want me to stop, so they say something like, "if you stop crying you can have a treat." I have no idea if that happened, but like I mentioned..these are theories. It's noone's fault and like Hoss talked abou tin his blog, the past doesn't matter, I control my own destiny in the health and fitness area, and I need to make healthy choices every day and be more "present" in my day and with each thing I am doing.
From 2-10 years old, I lived acorss the street from a great family! Over the years we have totally stayed in touch, in fact, my mom is best friends with the mom, Lee. "Uncle" Chuck and "Aunt" Lee, along with their 3 daughters, Toni, Suzi and Nancy are like family to me. Wednesday, we lost Uncle Chuck. He was surrounded by his family as he passed, and it leaves such a gap in my heart and my heart just aches for the family that he left behind.
This is the reason I started to really think about my stress eating. Last night I was thinking, "I know that I can't fix this of help this, i don't know what to do." eating...lol. I thought about my life and my parents a lot.
Uncle Chuck, I will carry you in my heart. Aunt Lee, Toni, Suzi and Nancy, I love you all!
For thursday, I will make healthier choices!!
Please think about the words you use with your children, especially when talking about food.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
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