Okay, where has the time gone...distractions...work, excitement, nervous energy, rediscovering myself, working out, errands, cleaning, but mostly...building relationships!
I have to say first, that Monday, may 9th, I weighed in. I moved
3 lbs closer to my goal for a 5 week total with my trainer, Sabra Bodzioney, of 17.4 lbs...Overall lost is 60.4 lbs! 39.6 to go until my goal..well, the 1st big goal.
Like I said, it is week 5 under the direction of Sabra Bodzioney. I can't say it is one thing she says or does and she is not working out with me everyday or couseling me on my food much either, she is an observer; a keen listener to key things that I am saying; she helps me tweek the plan/course correct what I need to. Most of all, she is the voice in my head telling me, "eat, you need 1200 calories minimum" and "um, seriously, why would you eat that?" her voice reminds me food is just fuel and has no power. It is nothing to stress or be worried about. It is hard to imagine her not being in my life. Had I not gone on that cruise, I most likely never would have met her. That is a terrible thought to me!!!
Now, about the 10 year old child thing....
Yesterday, I was at a job with 3 children. We had already discussed when I "lost" Anna, 6 year old, when I hit 45 pound goal. so, I asked Joe, 10 years old, "how much do you weight?", um..."59.5 pounds". I said, "WOW!!! I have "lost" you and your new shoes!!" he started to laugh. He said, "when you lose Michael, just really lose him, okay?" ---oh, a brother's love..haha--- so, what is so amazing is that as good as I feel about moving closer to my goal and a healthier life, I feel terrible about the fact that I had basically had the weight of a 10 year old child attatched to my body!! Anna asked, "so when you are all done, are you going to lose my mom?" I originally said no, but then though...hmm...maybe. I have no idea what she weighs, but estimating...yeah, that could actually be a possibility. THAT is unbelievable to me! Gotta chat with Sabra about that one.
So, about the distractions... work, working out, cleaning, errands, excitement, nervous energy, discovering myself, but mostly...building relationships!
work...um currently need to do that in order to live, so gotta keep that
working out..again, kind of a big thing given my current goals in life
cleaning...gotta be able to find the counter to make my food AND not have stinky clothes, right?
errands...well, seriously, with the price of gas being what it is, do you really think I would just run errands that I didn't need to do?
...a little side note...
A little girl that I watch has her morning things that she needs to get done before school..you know, the basics of get dressed, eat, brush/floss teeth, brush hair, pick up toys that were left out, etc. She can't do other activities until these are done, because she takes so long to get them done. Yes, she knows that she has the choice not to do those things, but if it is time to go to school, then she is going with whatever clothes she has on, with her hair looking however it looks. So please don't say I'm forcing her to do anything and she needs to discover the consequence on her how...she had the consequencs of almost being taken to school in her underwear. Anyway, she calls her list, her "have to things".
So, Obviously the things that I listed before the story are sort of necessities, and I don't have anyone to do these things for me. They are my "have to things". We all have basic "have to things" everyday. For some people it is more, and some it is less, but quite often there are other "have to things" that aren't as easily as identifiable. That's where these other distractions come in.
discovering myself
This sort of encompasses the rest of them. In building relationships with other people and listening to their input, struggles, triumps, I learn from that. I can apply things from their experiences to my life also. The biggest distraction to me is the people in my life that I care about. I have mentioned this before...this feeds my soul, my heart. But, it's not a distraction that I could or would ever cut out of my day! Thus, in this "discovery" process along my journey, I have really realized that feeding my soul/heart with these relationships is one of my "have to things". It's not something that I could cut out or decrease my time doing in my life like TV, reading for enjoyment-not learning, window shopping, gardening, going to concerts, going to the movies, redecorating the house, facebook. Now, some of you just read some of my things that I could cut out and you were shocked!! "How could you possibly cut those things out of your life, I love to do those things!!" WEll, none of those will either lead me to my goal or make me feel complete in my day. does that make sense to you?
You know mine now, and I'm sure there are some that I missed or are waiting to be discovered along my journey. Now, I urge you to ask yourself what are your "have to things" in your life.
All of these long time friends and so many new ones but especially Krista, Sabra, Allison, Megan, Joslyn, and Hoss always need to be part of my life! What I have even found is that certain relationships, like with Sabra and Krista, often take over because of the importance of the people and their needs. What I have learned is that sometimes, being out of balance to learn about and lead to balance is a process and just takes time. Waiting for everything to fall into place in a relationship, a job, a health goal, whatever it may be, is often a struggle, but can lead you to the most rewarding experience and discovery of all!
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
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