Wow, I am so tired. It is 2:43am on Tuesday. Monday’s plan for a quick run and for 5/6 hours of sleep pretty much got thrown out the window. I left work at 7am, checked in again on some cats, went home and weighed in. .i have moved 3.2 closer to my goal for a total of 45.2! I didn’t hit my 50 pound goal for tomorrow, but after the week that I had, I am soo happy that I accomplished what I did! My goal for next Monday is 4.8 pounds for a total of 50. With some great strategy, and me staying focused on my goal, I know that I can do it! During the time when I left work and 9:30am, I had a few friends that just needed help. I want to be able to help when I can, and for one of my friends, I felt terrible that I couldn’t help more. My friend’s husband passed away over the weekend. He wasn’t all that old, and it was so sudden. I wanted to just know the right thing to say and help, but there really are no words. So, that was one of the friends that I wanted to be able to help, and a couple of other phone calls with friends that were having challenges, so I ended up sleeping just about 30 minutes in the morning. Then I stopped by by friends house to check on her and luckily she had family around helping her. I worked 1-6 , then had to go to 2 stores, then I slept for about 2 hours before I went and got some caffeine and got here to work.
It was a very active day at work, and though I chose sleep over working out, so that I could actually function tonight, I know that the rest of the week, I can work out every day. I just did all of my push ups and crunches for the day, so, I feel great about that too! Obviously, I didn’t print out blog from yesterday, due to time and lack of sleep, and not posting pics tonight because no internet access. I am actually typing this in an email on outlook to myself so that I can copy and paste it to the blog in the morning.
The passing of my friend’s husband, he was my friend too, but really didn’t know him THAT well, made me reflect today. Helped me to look at what is important to me, and why I am setting out to accomplish this big goal. It’s for my health. Without that, nothing else matters because If my health is terrible, I might not be able to be around for the other things in my life. We all know this, but I think we think about it more when something happens to someone who has affected our life in some way. Does that make sense? It also made me think about spending more time with people in my life. I always want to do that anyway, but it’s not always as pressing in my mind.
Here are my stats:
Sleep..2.5 hours
Calories burned:
Calories consumed:
Calorie deficit:
(will be posted when I get internet access)
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Monday, October 4, 2010
sleepy sunday
It is now 3:30am on Monday, and I have moved forward more tonight than I did, physically, all day. I haven't mentioned push ups and crunches much because I haven't been doing them each day. I think that Sunday night I realized that with all that I had going on, I bit off more than I could chew in my expectations of what i could do physically. Don't get me wrong, there was the time available for me to get them done, but physically I was so drained, it was to much. If I try and take on too much, and I don't accomplish it, I don't want to feel totally defeated and slide backwards. So, this week, i did all of my wall push ups, 4 of the 7 days of bent knee push ups and only 2.5 days of the crunches. Oh, I just remembered that on Friday, I used that machine where you support your weight on your elbows, put your back against the pad, and then lift your knees--it helps your abs. I did my personal best of 9. So, I am going to repeat this week's "goal" of how many crunches, and push ups. It is silly to move on when I haven't mastered a level. When I finish with this post, I plan to enter all of my food for the days that i missed this past week, and then make up some daily schedules that are realistic, with sleep, workout and eating times. I will post one day at a time up where I can see it each morning. I will focus on one day at a time, not look ahead to the entire week. I will also make sure that I post to the blog every day. I planned on bringing my portable hard drive tonight to this job so that I could post some pictures, but forgot it. Tomorrow, I will get more pictures of me, for this weigh in that I have in the morning, if for some reason I can't, I will post as many pictures as I can so you can see, finally. I have not been putting my goals right in front of me, to make them my key focus every day. That will change this week.
Today I didn't work out, but I did do some research/dream building online regarding the cruise. I have decided that I will do one excursion each of the 2 days that I can. They run $39 to $59 per excursion. I am trying to decide which ones to do. If any of you have suggestions, let me know. The one I am considering the most is in Nassau, Bahamas and it is a sailboat ride and snorkeling. I didn't really think much about clothes for the cruise, I don't really want to spend a ton of money on clothing that I won't have very long, and I won't really wear much. However, I know that i need to get a couple of pairs of shorts and a few more work out items since the ones that I have are starting to fall apart. I have a swim suit, though it's not great, it will work.
I took a 3 hour nap today, to get a jump on this overnight job that will mess with my sleeping habits again for a couple of days. I also sent that email that I needed to send, and by doing that, I got a new found energy and accomplished many things at home that I needed to do. I keep thinking about how much I would have done if I had written it sooner. I am still not done with all that I need to take care of in my apartment, I have things scattered all over, and as you know from previous posts, that is really hard for me. Some of it is stuff to sell on craigs list, I still have that stack of clothes that are too big to get rid of and some stuff I need to put in my patio storage. These are things to accomplish this week along with 3 runs, some biking, swimming and weights. It is a new week, and I have some goals to hit before the cruise.
Oh, I never hit a 1900 calorie deficit this week, so I didn't watch the biggest loser. I really wanted to watch it, but if I don't hit the goal, I don't get to. So, this week, when I hit 1900, I will watch last week's, and when I hit it again, I will watch this week's.
I will print out this post so that I stay on track with these goals. I know there will be some challenges that I don't anticipate,I know there will be a funeral to attend this week, but not sure which day, I know that I will have added jobs that I will have to rearrange my schedule for. I also know that if i make excuses for not doing the things that I have talked about here, then I am quitting on the commitments that I have made not only to you, but to myself. I can't look the people I love in the eye and tell them that they aren't worth a little pain on my part, and I can't do it to myself anymore. We are all worth more than that.
my stats:
calories burned:2051---yikes..can you tell it was a sedentary day?!?!!
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
learning and growing into a healthier me!!
~Cindy Lou
Today I didn't work out, but I did do some research/dream building online regarding the cruise. I have decided that I will do one excursion each of the 2 days that I can. They run $39 to $59 per excursion. I am trying to decide which ones to do. If any of you have suggestions, let me know. The one I am considering the most is in Nassau, Bahamas and it is a sailboat ride and snorkeling. I didn't really think much about clothes for the cruise, I don't really want to spend a ton of money on clothing that I won't have very long, and I won't really wear much. However, I know that i need to get a couple of pairs of shorts and a few more work out items since the ones that I have are starting to fall apart. I have a swim suit, though it's not great, it will work.
I took a 3 hour nap today, to get a jump on this overnight job that will mess with my sleeping habits again for a couple of days. I also sent that email that I needed to send, and by doing that, I got a new found energy and accomplished many things at home that I needed to do. I keep thinking about how much I would have done if I had written it sooner. I am still not done with all that I need to take care of in my apartment, I have things scattered all over, and as you know from previous posts, that is really hard for me. Some of it is stuff to sell on craigs list, I still have that stack of clothes that are too big to get rid of and some stuff I need to put in my patio storage. These are things to accomplish this week along with 3 runs, some biking, swimming and weights. It is a new week, and I have some goals to hit before the cruise.
Oh, I never hit a 1900 calorie deficit this week, so I didn't watch the biggest loser. I really wanted to watch it, but if I don't hit the goal, I don't get to. So, this week, when I hit 1900, I will watch last week's, and when I hit it again, I will watch this week's.
I will print out this post so that I stay on track with these goals. I know there will be some challenges that I don't anticipate,I know there will be a funeral to attend this week, but not sure which day, I know that I will have added jobs that I will have to rearrange my schedule for. I also know that if i make excuses for not doing the things that I have talked about here, then I am quitting on the commitments that I have made not only to you, but to myself. I can't look the people I love in the eye and tell them that they aren't worth a little pain on my part, and I can't do it to myself anymore. We are all worth more than that.
my stats:
calories burned:2051---yikes..can you tell it was a sedentary day?!?!!
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
learning and growing into a healthier me!!
~Cindy Lou
Still bogged down, but more rested
I feel much more rested and plan to take on running again tonight. I had no work until about 4pm, had to leave by 3pm...but since I got up around 10am, I didn't think I had a ton of time to do things. In retrospect, I did, but I got up, slow to wake up, breakfast, lunch, dishes, laundry( I really need to get more work out clothes), and answering emails. In writing this, it sounds like excuses. I planned to work out after the job ended at 9pm, so wasn't really too worried about working out. I was thinking, cool, I can prepare my meals, get a few things done to be ready for Sunday and the rest of the week. BUt, I think I ended up turning on the computer and got sucked in to doing things that I didn't need to focus on. I think, I was still trying to avoid writing that email to the job on Friday, and was distracting myself with everything that I could.
I went to work that night, and it was great. I got to see the girls that I was a nanny for, for 4.5 years, and we had a great time. We talked about me doing the "race" AKA 5K, we talked about me working out, eating healthy. But I also had to be careful not to talk about weight too much and things like that, because as young girls, I want the focus for them to be on a healthy lifestyle...not on a number that is your weight. I planned to be done at about 9, but ended up being done after 10. It was totally fine, but it through off my plans a bit.
Once home, I got dressed and headed to the gym. It was hard again, but I pushed through for awhile, and was determined to complete it. Then, out of nowhere, i got a cramp on my right side. I never get cramps anymore..uggg. I thought, fight through it, it will pass. But, it didn't pass, it kept hurting more, a couple of minutes went by, I ketp telling myself, if this happens in the 5K, you're not going to stop, but, it got hard to run, I had to stop. However, I went down to a walk, and it started to get a bit better. I increased my walking speed to 3.7 and increased my incline to 1.0, and finished the 30 minutes that way. I then went home, took my shower and went to bed. I knew that I had things I wanted to accomplish on Sunday, and I knew that I needed to be at work at 11pm for overnight with the twins, so sleep would be important.
my stats:
calories burned: 2813
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
I am starting to figure things out. I'm not perfect at this, and I know that I will never be, but what I do know is that even when I have a day that didn't meet my expectations, or I didn't put all that I felt was important to put into it, I am still learning from it and trying to figure out why, so that in the future, hopefully I will be able to reflect on it and make a different decision.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
I went to work that night, and it was great. I got to see the girls that I was a nanny for, for 4.5 years, and we had a great time. We talked about me doing the "race" AKA 5K, we talked about me working out, eating healthy. But I also had to be careful not to talk about weight too much and things like that, because as young girls, I want the focus for them to be on a healthy lifestyle...not on a number that is your weight. I planned to be done at about 9, but ended up being done after 10. It was totally fine, but it through off my plans a bit.
Once home, I got dressed and headed to the gym. It was hard again, but I pushed through for awhile, and was determined to complete it. Then, out of nowhere, i got a cramp on my right side. I never get cramps anymore..uggg. I thought, fight through it, it will pass. But, it didn't pass, it kept hurting more, a couple of minutes went by, I ketp telling myself, if this happens in the 5K, you're not going to stop, but, it got hard to run, I had to stop. However, I went down to a walk, and it started to get a bit better. I increased my walking speed to 3.7 and increased my incline to 1.0, and finished the 30 minutes that way. I then went home, took my shower and went to bed. I knew that I had things I wanted to accomplish on Sunday, and I knew that I needed to be at work at 11pm for overnight with the twins, so sleep would be important.
my stats:
calories burned: 2813
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
I am starting to figure things out. I'm not perfect at this, and I know that I will never be, but what I do know is that even when I have a day that didn't meet my expectations, or I didn't put all that I felt was important to put into it, I am still learning from it and trying to figure out why, so that in the future, hopefully I will be able to reflect on it and make a different decision.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
friday--bogged down
Well, like I have talked about before, this is a learning and growing experience, and all of us have to figure out how to handle things that come our way. I know that if I am really busy, I do better fitting things in and scheduling work out time and getting the house in order. When I have nothing planned at all, I do very little. Maybe read, watch a dvd or something, sleep, look at stuff online..overall procrastinate. Are any of you like that? I think that in the past, I would be bored and eat something. Glad to say that doesn't really enter my mind these days. I know taht every 4 hours, I eat..that's it, and for me, knowing that, makes it easier.
It is Monday morning, 10/4, at 2am. I am watching the twins again, and catching up on all I can from last week. That is why I am talking about getting bogged down and learning how to handle things.
So, on Friday, I had a difficult time at a job, and knew that I needed to talk to the parents about it, but didn't want to ruin the trip the mom was on by sending and email to her while she was away. So, I planned on sending it on Sunday. That bogged me down all weekend. What is so funny is that seriously, as I was typing this, I came up with a solution that would have worked. I could have typed out the email and saved it to send on Sunday. Maybe if I would have blogged on Friday, I could have avoided the weekend bog down.
The cool thing about this day is that I was with a 5 year old at a park, and I did some push ups on the equipment, did some other things that I surprised myself with. It was pretty cool. I also walked around while she played, played with her, just kept moving, it was great. I attempted a pull up on a bar, as you could probably guess, yeah, I wasn't able to do it. But, I tried. :)
I was determined to do a run, since I hadn't run since tuesday. Well, I fell short. I did about 2 minutes, and well, I had to stop. I think that the lack of sleep finallly caught up with me and my body. I went over and did the bike for a few minutes, then I did weights. I then went home and after my shower, went straight to bed. I fell right asleep.
my stats:
calories burned: 3127
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
will fill in the rest when I enter my food. Just wanted to make sure I got blogging done.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
It is Monday morning, 10/4, at 2am. I am watching the twins again, and catching up on all I can from last week. That is why I am talking about getting bogged down and learning how to handle things.
So, on Friday, I had a difficult time at a job, and knew that I needed to talk to the parents about it, but didn't want to ruin the trip the mom was on by sending and email to her while she was away. So, I planned on sending it on Sunday. That bogged me down all weekend. What is so funny is that seriously, as I was typing this, I came up with a solution that would have worked. I could have typed out the email and saved it to send on Sunday. Maybe if I would have blogged on Friday, I could have avoided the weekend bog down.
The cool thing about this day is that I was with a 5 year old at a park, and I did some push ups on the equipment, did some other things that I surprised myself with. It was pretty cool. I also walked around while she played, played with her, just kept moving, it was great. I attempted a pull up on a bar, as you could probably guess, yeah, I wasn't able to do it. But, I tried. :)
I was determined to do a run, since I hadn't run since tuesday. Well, I fell short. I did about 2 minutes, and well, I had to stop. I think that the lack of sleep finallly caught up with me and my body. I went over and did the bike for a few minutes, then I did weights. I then went home and after my shower, went straight to bed. I fell right asleep.
my stats:
calories burned: 3127
calories consumed:
calorie deficit:
will fill in the rest when I enter my food. Just wanted to make sure I got blogging done.
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Friday, October 1, 2010
thursday
It is 2:30am on Friday morning, and I am working the last night this week, caring for 3 month old twins. I am actually working backwards and starting with yesterday, and going back and entering blog info for Wed and Tuesday also.
So, today I left work at 7:30am. I did not sleep at all last night, just worked on things on the computer and did things at this house for the family that I am working for. I have been tracking the twins all week to find patterns to their eating and sleeping at night, so I can help the family get the twins on a schedule, and that consumed a bit of time, of analyzing the past few days and planning on what to do to help. Anyway, I got home, took a quick shower and then a 3 hour nap. I had a dog walking job, right where I live, basically, so that felt really good to get a walk in, since I knew that I wasn't going to go to the gym in the evening. Then, off to work from 1-7. When I got home, I was a little hungry, but knew that I needed to sleep, and figured that if I waited and ate after that, maybe around 10:30, then I could last all night at the job. So, tried to sleep and couldn't...ugg!! I was tired, but my body just didn't want to sleep. So, as a result, I got iced tea again to keep me up all night.So, tomorrow(Friday) I will sleep in the morning and be able to go to bed early if I want to.
I talked about it on Monday, and it has proven to be the case...not getting my sleep, and the food is totally strange. I am eating more meals, but the seem to be smaller for the most part.
I have been keeping up with my wall push ups(110), but not the knee push ups or the crunches, so below you will see what I accomplished to catch up.
my stats:
did 110 wall push ups, 40 knee push ups and 375 crunches
**I owe for tues and wed..will do tonight inbetween baby feedings and post on friday's blog
no sleep overnight, but 3 hours this morning from 8am-11am
calories burned: 2989
calories consumed: 1290
calorie deficit: 1699
Thanks for reading. I would love to hear your input, especially if you are someone who regularly works a night shift..how do you manage the sleep and food thing?
Learning and Growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
So, today I left work at 7:30am. I did not sleep at all last night, just worked on things on the computer and did things at this house for the family that I am working for. I have been tracking the twins all week to find patterns to their eating and sleeping at night, so I can help the family get the twins on a schedule, and that consumed a bit of time, of analyzing the past few days and planning on what to do to help. Anyway, I got home, took a quick shower and then a 3 hour nap. I had a dog walking job, right where I live, basically, so that felt really good to get a walk in, since I knew that I wasn't going to go to the gym in the evening. Then, off to work from 1-7. When I got home, I was a little hungry, but knew that I needed to sleep, and figured that if I waited and ate after that, maybe around 10:30, then I could last all night at the job. So, tried to sleep and couldn't...ugg!! I was tired, but my body just didn't want to sleep. So, as a result, I got iced tea again to keep me up all night.So, tomorrow(Friday) I will sleep in the morning and be able to go to bed early if I want to.
I talked about it on Monday, and it has proven to be the case...not getting my sleep, and the food is totally strange. I am eating more meals, but the seem to be smaller for the most part.
I have been keeping up with my wall push ups(110), but not the knee push ups or the crunches, so below you will see what I accomplished to catch up.
my stats:
did 110 wall push ups, 40 knee push ups and 375 crunches
**I owe for tues and wed..will do tonight inbetween baby feedings and post on friday's blog
no sleep overnight, but 3 hours this morning from 8am-11am
calories burned: 2989
calories consumed: 1290
calorie deficit: 1699
Thanks for reading. I would love to hear your input, especially if you are someone who regularly works a night shift..how do you manage the sleep and food thing?
Learning and Growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
wednesday--cool new cruise stuff
Today was a cool day overall, but it was pretty busy too. I left the job, very tired at about 7:15am. I had to meet someone at 9am about dog walking. so, I took a shower and a short nap, then walked over to their apartment and did the meeting. Back home and more napping for about an hour or so, then took my sister and sister in law to the airport, took my phone in to be repaired, back home, lunch and then off to work at 2:30-7. I actually had to go back and pick up the phone after I went home. When I got there, it wasn't ready as promised. I was getting frustrated and fidgety. I realized how important my sleep is, and that I knew that I had to do what I had to do to meet my financial commitments, but I need to focus more on my mental attitude when I am sleep deprived. Good lesson to be reminded of. It was not a very active day, but I was still feeling blah after last night with the twins. After work, a 3 hour nap, then I broke down and got a huge iced tea to drink at the job in the evening.
Okay, I know, that doesn't sound like a cool day, but once I got to work, I had to do a bunch of stuff to sync my phone with my computer again, answer emails, all the stuff that I hadn't been doing. I knew that I needed to do the blog too, but I was just feeling like, UGG, too much to do!! Well, I remembered that I needed to choose the work outs for the cruise. Plus, I really hadn't looked much at it because I wanted it all paid for first, ya know? So, I started to look at what the cruise had to offer, what the schedule was like, and thought that since you are following this journey with me, you might like to hear about this "reward" and teaching that I have worked so hard for. So, here's sort of what the schedule looks like:
OH, there are the usual festivities throughout the cruise, but I thought I would just share with you the workouts/health related thigns that I am planning for and like I said, with the exception of the confirmed group work out with Jillian, the others are "preferences", so not positive that I will get into those work out slots.
day 1: 8:45pm, board plane to Florida
day 2: arrive at 5am. Then, I think I will take a cab to a 24 hour fitness, do a work out, get cleaned up, grab some breakfast and walk around a bit. I can get to the ship around 1 or so. I will get settled and hopefully meet some people and walk around a ton, but in the evening, my work out is:
Steve Lee - Thursday 7:00pm - Synergy
day 3: is a day at Great Stirrup Cay, Bahamas from 8am-5pm... however, I will also be doing 2 work outs... Madelene Karlsson - Friday 9:30am - Shred It With weights and then Jeanette Jenkins-5pm-kick boxing
day 4: is a day at Nassau, Bahamas from 8am-5pm, but I have a work out with Heidi Rhoades - Saturday 8:30am - Yoga ... then my group work out with Jillian at 7:15pm, and a group discussion done by Jillian at 9pm
day 5: first work out is with Marco Borges - Sunday 10:00am - Spinning ... then at 3pm is a 5K fun run!! so, I will try my first attempt at a 5K not on the treadmill!!
*****Okay, it is Saturday, and I just realized that I don't get all 5 of my classes that I put down as preferences, they will give me one..duh!! But, there is a chance i can go do other ones..i will have to see when I get there!!
my stats:
calories burned: 2930
calories consumed: 1775
calorie deficit:1155
babies need me...will add more in a bit
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
Okay, I know, that doesn't sound like a cool day, but once I got to work, I had to do a bunch of stuff to sync my phone with my computer again, answer emails, all the stuff that I hadn't been doing. I knew that I needed to do the blog too, but I was just feeling like, UGG, too much to do!! Well, I remembered that I needed to choose the work outs for the cruise. Plus, I really hadn't looked much at it because I wanted it all paid for first, ya know? So, I started to look at what the cruise had to offer, what the schedule was like, and thought that since you are following this journey with me, you might like to hear about this "reward" and teaching that I have worked so hard for. So, here's sort of what the schedule looks like:
OH, there are the usual festivities throughout the cruise, but I thought I would just share with you the workouts/health related thigns that I am planning for and like I said, with the exception of the confirmed group work out with Jillian, the others are "preferences", so not positive that I will get into those work out slots.
day 1: 8:45pm, board plane to Florida
day 2: arrive at 5am. Then, I think I will take a cab to a 24 hour fitness, do a work out, get cleaned up, grab some breakfast and walk around a bit. I can get to the ship around 1 or so. I will get settled and hopefully meet some people and walk around a ton, but in the evening, my work out is:
Steve Lee - Thursday 7:00pm - Synergy
day 3: is a day at Great Stirrup Cay, Bahamas from 8am-5pm... however, I will also be doing 2 work outs... Madelene Karlsson - Friday 9:30am - Shred It With weights and then Jeanette Jenkins-5pm-kick boxing
day 4: is a day at Nassau, Bahamas from 8am-5pm, but I have a work out with Heidi Rhoades - Saturday 8:30am - Yoga ... then my group work out with Jillian at 7:15pm, and a group discussion done by Jillian at 9pm
day 5: first work out is with Marco Borges - Sunday 10:00am - Spinning ... then at 3pm is a 5K fun run!! so, I will try my first attempt at a 5K not on the treadmill!!
*****Okay, it is Saturday, and I just realized that I don't get all 5 of my classes that I put down as preferences, they will give me one..duh!! But, there is a chance i can go do other ones..i will have to see when I get there!!
my stats:
calories burned: 2930
calories consumed: 1775
calorie deficit:1155
babies need me...will add more in a bit
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
tuesday and last day of C25K!!
I finished the second night of watching the twins from 11pm-7am. It went well, but had a little trouble being awake the whole time, so I think I did a 20 minute doze at one point. My back was bothering me, so I went to the chiropractor, and then home and slept for 7 hours, it was great. I didn't have to be anywhere until 8pm, so I did the dishes and some laundry, made my meals, it was great. I knew the week would be a little crazy with the overnight job and working 4 afternoons too, so I wanted to take advantage of the time at home.
I planned on doing all of my crunches and push ups, but just didn't do everything...results below.
I knew that I had to run, so I finally went out into the 98 degree heat and went to the gym. I decided that as much as I like to use the machine at 24 hour fitness, I would just use the treadmill at the gym where I live. I got there, and started my walk, and my iPod died!! I can't believe I forgot to charge it. Oh well, I know that some events like the 5K don't allow them, so I just dealt with it. I mean, seriously, what was I going to do, say "oh, my ipod is dead, I can't run?" I don't think so. Today was my last 30 minute run on the C25K program, and I wanted to finish it so bad! About 3 minutes into my run, I just felt tired and really didn't want to run, but the dream of completing this "task" and hitting my goal of doing the entire program outweighed the discomfort and lack of desire I had to not run. So, I dug down deep and just ran, and ran, and ran until I got to 5 minutes left, then I had to really just mentally pass the hurdle. I started to talk to myself, reminding myself of what I am working for, reminding myself that if I quit, I was going to throw away all of those 25 minutes that I ran, and have to do this run another day. Okay, that clinched it for me, I didn't want to do it all over again. So, then I started to look around the gym at all of the people and some thoughts occurred to me, and I thought that I would share them with you...
I was looking at all of the people and I just started to think about Vanity. Most people say, "oh, it will be great if I look better, but I just want to be healthy" right? I see these people lifting weights, they are a healthy weight, and they look in the mirrors in the gym, and their muscles getting bigger. That isn't to be healthier, it's about the way they look. Now, I'm not trying to just say "those people" because I want my body to look a certain way too. I mean if it was all about just being healthy, then people would just eat healthier, and not buy all the food that is unhealthy, right? I'm not really sure why I wanted to bring this up, besides that it was just something that was interesting that I noticed. What are your thoughts on this, or are you just thinking..so, what's the point? I think that my point is that maybe we can all be a little more honest about the whole thing, and admit that it is about more than just feeling and being healthy, it's about the results of how we will look that often push us out of our comfort zone to do the real hard work in the gym.
Then I went to my meeting and then headed to the overnight job again. I was soo tired, and basically sat in the big recliner in between diapers and feedings and dozed in and out until about 4 or 5 in the morning.
I got an email tonight that said now that my cruise is paid for, I need to pick 5 workouts with various trainers on different days/times that I would prefer on the cruise!! I will do it on Wednesday night, it's due by Friday!!
my stats:
did 110 wall push ups, bent knee push ups and crunches carried over to Wednesday.
calories burned: 2876
calories consumed:1843
calorie deficit: 1033
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
I planned on doing all of my crunches and push ups, but just didn't do everything...results below.
I knew that I had to run, so I finally went out into the 98 degree heat and went to the gym. I decided that as much as I like to use the machine at 24 hour fitness, I would just use the treadmill at the gym where I live. I got there, and started my walk, and my iPod died!! I can't believe I forgot to charge it. Oh well, I know that some events like the 5K don't allow them, so I just dealt with it. I mean, seriously, what was I going to do, say "oh, my ipod is dead, I can't run?" I don't think so. Today was my last 30 minute run on the C25K program, and I wanted to finish it so bad! About 3 minutes into my run, I just felt tired and really didn't want to run, but the dream of completing this "task" and hitting my goal of doing the entire program outweighed the discomfort and lack of desire I had to not run. So, I dug down deep and just ran, and ran, and ran until I got to 5 minutes left, then I had to really just mentally pass the hurdle. I started to talk to myself, reminding myself of what I am working for, reminding myself that if I quit, I was going to throw away all of those 25 minutes that I ran, and have to do this run another day. Okay, that clinched it for me, I didn't want to do it all over again. So, then I started to look around the gym at all of the people and some thoughts occurred to me, and I thought that I would share them with you...
I was looking at all of the people and I just started to think about Vanity. Most people say, "oh, it will be great if I look better, but I just want to be healthy" right? I see these people lifting weights, they are a healthy weight, and they look in the mirrors in the gym, and their muscles getting bigger. That isn't to be healthier, it's about the way they look. Now, I'm not trying to just say "those people" because I want my body to look a certain way too. I mean if it was all about just being healthy, then people would just eat healthier, and not buy all the food that is unhealthy, right? I'm not really sure why I wanted to bring this up, besides that it was just something that was interesting that I noticed. What are your thoughts on this, or are you just thinking..so, what's the point? I think that my point is that maybe we can all be a little more honest about the whole thing, and admit that it is about more than just feeling and being healthy, it's about the results of how we will look that often push us out of our comfort zone to do the real hard work in the gym.
Then I went to my meeting and then headed to the overnight job again. I was soo tired, and basically sat in the big recliner in between diapers and feedings and dozed in and out until about 4 or 5 in the morning.
I got an email tonight that said now that my cruise is paid for, I need to pick 5 workouts with various trainers on different days/times that I would prefer on the cruise!! I will do it on Wednesday night, it's due by Friday!!
my stats:
did 110 wall push ups, bent knee push ups and crunches carried over to Wednesday.
calories burned: 2876
calories consumed:1843
calorie deficit: 1033
Learning and growing into a healthier me!
~Cindy Lou
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